OK. Those who have a low opinion of me already do not need to respond. It's fine.
Anyway, I had my first judo class a night ago and am pretty sore now. The tempo was fairly rapid and we had to do a lot of gymnastics, some of it somewhat bizarre.
Lots of falling. Again, it was quick and it was pretty tough to get a hang of it all, especially as people were improvising. I jarred my neck a little taking a fall and ultimately got a slight, but not serious headache.
Worked a pin on the ground. Was so-so.
And ultimately did a short randori with somebody much more experienced and older. It seems as if I could have perhaps kept him at bay with pure strength but did not feel very good about it and held back a little, getting pinned and stuck a few times over. I was put off a litte by the fact that he apparently saw it fit to press into my throat and face with the forearm, the legality of which I questioned. I ended up asking someone who's into BJJ and he claimed it's within the rules.
I'm still not sure whether to continue. I last tried martial arts as a teen and ended it due to social anxiety of the time. I'm not like that anymore though I'm self-concious about any mistakes I may do.
The decision regarding continuing is up to me of course but I would like to hear from people with a solid background in judo or related grappling arts. Did you feel like it got more interesting over time and did you have to force yourself at all? As opposed to being sure from the get-go. I do have some hobbies so it's not as if it's 'necessary' for me, and would likely pose challenges I do not care for, but perhaps there are reasons why it's worth the cost. I'm no longer a boy and fear the remainder of youth passing without any athletic achievement other than weights. As an adult, options are somewhat limited.