=== Getting stuff ready ===
Can’t go into sources at all. I think I can say that I got stuff online, since it’s not exactly news that the internet in general is a source. Can’t say more than that though.
I can summarize my experience in trying to find a place though (in broad strokes) by saying you really have no idea what you’re getting until you get it. You can read as many threads as you want, reviews as you want, but there’s no way you ever will know. You just have to decide if you want to take the plunge.
I got my hands on the stuff extremely quickly after ordering. I only halfway knew the small box I was carrying home had AAS in it. It’s a bit of a wierd feeling when you open it up and are staring straight at this stuff. For one thing, a 10mg bottle is really, really tiny. It looks like something for a small animal, not something to make a freakishly jacked human out of.
Went to my local grocery store to get pins. I was coming home from work and was well dressed (collared shirt and all that) and just walked right up the the pharmacist and said “I need to get some syringes and needles for intramuscular injection, please” and without a moments pause she said “sure, do you know which sizes you need?”. There was no dramatic drawn out pause while she sized me up or anything. Could have been asking for Tylenol.
Grabbed 30x 3ml syringes (I’m pinning 1ml, but bigger is always better, right!), 25g and 21g needles. That plus alcohol and swabs was about $25.
First mistake: Forget to check the length of the needles. The 25g are 5/8". Bummer. More on that later.
Got home, showered off and thought to myself, “well, might as well take the plunge”. I’ve used some other substances in the past (in countries where it was legal) so I’m used to the “about to put something in my body I’m not 100% sure about” nerves. Still, I sat there for about a minute giving this one last contemplation. Then I grabbed the alcohol bottle and got on with it.
Back to the needles for a second - I bought 5/8". Not ideal. Almost all the advise online was that 5/8" was a fine size… for a child. I did a quick computation in my head - I carry a bit more fat on my glutes, so if I go there I might inject into fat. I know from research that’s not dangerous, but will slow down absorption. My glute may be a bit fatty but my thighs are lean. Hrm. Pinched em, not too fat at all. All in all I decided that that seemed like a good enough spot, I probably would be deeper than any fat and the worst case is slow absoprtion. Decided to go for it and grab 1" needles tomorrow (maybe).
Swabbed the vial, put an X on the injection site for reference then swabbed it. Attached the 21g needle, popped the top off, stuck it into the vial and started to draw. Oops, forgot to pull air into the needle. Take it out, pull air in, stick into the vial, air into the vial and gear into the syringe. Syringe out, push air bubbles out. Pop the 21g off, put the 25g on. Push air out again (safe vs sorry).
Moment of truth - pulled the skin to the side and pushed the needle in, really really softly because I’m a big softie apparently. After some resistance, it broke the skin, then a bit more and it slid into what I’m assuming is the muscle. After the resistance of the skin it slid super, super smoothly in. Didn’t hurt at all the whole time. I then tried to aspirate but couldn’t get enough pressure on the syringe one handed. I left the skin go, then thought “s**t, that was dumb” and pulled it back again. This whole time the syringe is bobbing in and out as the muscle moves around by about 1/8". Stupid. Finally get back in position and aspirate and got a tiny air bubble, phew. Then I pushed the plunger down gently, the whole cc took about 15-30s I think. Then syringe out, one more alcohol swab and good to go. Just a drop of blood.
At this point it’s about 2 hours later and the best thing has happened: nothing. I’ll get back on here after tomorrow’s injection and give a status update! P.S. Don’t worry, these won’t be daily.