It’s currently 1:09 AM on July 4th. I’m supposed to be getting up at 7:30 AM, but I can’t fall asleep. Why? A girl I’ve liked for awhile has as of today started going out with one of my best friends, and it’s my fault it happened. I never pursued her because of my horrible physique, and now it’s screwed me.
I’ve never really pursued anyone I’ve liked because of it, and I’m sick of living that way. I won’t even go to places like the beach with friends because of it. It’s really pathetic, and I need to change.
My problem isn’t motivation, nor is it desire, nor is it knowledge. My problem is application. I understand how to eat correctly. I’ve read all of Dr. Berardi’s writings, etc. I understand how to work out correctly. But I cannot build a program between the two to fit what I specifically want to do. I understand the basics, but it’s the application to me specifically that I have trouble with.
Currently I’m 20 years old and turn 21 on the 20th of this month. I’m 6’0" and 187 pounds. I realize my weight isn’t all that high, but the problem is my body fat percentage.
I don’t know what it is specficaly, but it has to be pretty high. I have no definition whatsoever. The only veins that are visible on me are on my hands…sometimes. I have a layer of fat covering all areas of my body, and an especially high percent around the middle. I don’t have any pics at the moment as it’s pretty late at night and I had to get this off my chest as soon as I could, but I will update this thread if they are needed.
As for what I want to do, it’s pretty simple. I don’t desire to be absolutely frickin’ huge. That’s not my thing. I know that’s kind of contrary to the site and to what a lot of people on here go for, but that’s not me. What I do want to do is have a low body fat percentage. I want to be able to see my muscle, and to see my veins. It’s a pretty simple goal theoretically, but I’m lost on how to get there.
I realize having a low body fat percentage and having little to no muscle is pointless, but I’m OK there. I do have a decent muscle build on me, but it’s just buried at the moment. I know what I consider to me decent and what many on here consider to be decent are two diferent things, but I’m OK with what I have. Again, pics will help describe this better so I will post them when I have them available.
I have pretty much anything I need available to me to help me out. I have a membership to Gold’s, I’m currently sitting on about a years supply of Metabolic Drive, and can order any other suppliments I need. So that shouldn’t be a major issue.
Basically what I need from T-Nation is an outline. I need to know what I should eat, when I should work-out, and what I should be doing when working out. I understand this isn’t a small favor I ask, but I really need it. I’d even go as far as paying someone for a nicely laid out plan. I’m just sick of living the way I am. I think about how I’ve treated myself over the past few years and it makes me want to puke.
Assuming you’ve actually read all of this, I appreciate any help I get. Most of you are probably reading this and saying oh boo hoo, the poor fat boy is sad, but this means a lot to me. Again, I appreciate any help and please let me know what other information I can provide that will help you help me (Jerry McGuire). Thanks alot.