Just jumping in to check on everyone. Hope you all are doing well.
All I can say is I’m thankful. In the span of 3 years, I have been rendered helpless so that I can fully see, God’s will over my life to depend solely and fully on Him, and Him alone. I have lost everything from my marriage, to friends, consistent interest in earthly things, and now the house me and my mom have been living in for years.
Aside from my day job, all other advances I’ve made in life have come to a screeching halt.
Everything inside of me, that I thought I knew, that I thought I had some shred of authority on or over, was crushed. And praise Christ Jesus it was. Because I would’ve been lost. Forsaken. To be honest…I am the weakest person I know. I’m prone to overwhelming sadness, and stagnation. The blanket of depression and loneliness has followed me for longer than I can remember.
But finally. Those the Father have called and predestined long before the foundations of the earth were laid, I find myself being carried.
Everything is falling off of me. And while I have no idea what’s ahead, I’m okay. I’m at peace, and have the in dwelling presence of the Holy Spirit to keep the flame of hope burning steady.
Right now I find myself having my hands full with the teachings of James 1:22 and Galatians 5:22-23. To be a doer, and not just a hearer of the Word, and to present living and visible fruit of the Spirit. Whether I’m pressed hard like Job, or gripped with fear like Elijah, I have not been given a spirit of fear, but a spirit of power, love, and of a sound mind.
And this is a walk. An endurance race. Stripping off every weight, and the sin that so easily ensnares me. So that I can run this race of endurance, of faith, that God has set before me. Because Jesus Christ is coming back, and I, along with everyone else will one day confess that Christ is Lord.
So I’m okay. I’m here. I’m okay. And I’m still in this race. And to whoever this needs to reach, I pray you’re still in this race too.