Between you cutting, bulking, and before pics, the only thing that looks different is your waistline. That's not a good thing. I won't mince words here: for 14 months of training, it doesn't look like you've made a whole lot of progress. At 14 months in, you should be able to see a very visible difference from when you started if you do it right.
It probably would be a good idea to start a thread in the Beginner's forum and post your height, weight, diet, routine, best lifts, and goals.
And don't cut. You already know you won't be satisfied with the results.