Eternally Suicidal

Training Logs
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Are you still lost tonight?
Living but dead inside
This is a proclamation
This is a call to rise!

Are you abused, alone?
Walking with broken bones
If you feel you’ve been forgotten
Allow me to guide you home

We are the disillusioned
Weve been left wanting more
Before every aspiration hits the floor

Hold on for your life
All we feel is so far from alive
The damned are done believing
The cursed can dream no more
So hold on for your life
Because only the strong survive

They tell you what you should be
Sell you the plastic dream
Opinions are all provided
But nothing is what it seems

I dare you to take control
Cuz empty are hands and
Bruised are the souls
Of those who show no resistance
Of those who are weak below

We are the disenchanted
Who die with each passing day
No one here understands us so I say

How will it feel?
To live a lie until your dying day
Where nothing is real
As we sacrifice bending until we break
Its been revealed
Hold on for your life
Dreams are not theirs to take…
Dreams are not theirs to take

I said only the strong survive

22

Got back into Yoga today, surprisingly I’m still pliable. I havent done that since I I ended wrestling season in spring 08. This is pretty much the only thing I’m doing right now under my current situation

plus some push ups/body weight squats

might start workin in some plyos next weeks

i’ll have it all figured out

23

Back in the gym after a while “home away from home”, man I’m glad I went through that. Rage will be refocused back to my training. No longer will women and drugs dictate my conduct, I will control theirs.

So let’s get into it!

After reading a shoulder article on here and considerin my current training for that are I decided on changing. My shoulders are a lagging area so I’ll hit them with varying styles during the week. on Monday and Thursday

Today would normally be a heavy day, but since its my first day back into weight training I’m focusing on form but keepig the rep scheme…will be amped up in a few weeks.

Seated Barbell Shoulder Press 2 x 3 (pausing at the completeion of each rep, and starting from the bottom position rather than the usual)

warm up…bar x 20, 65 x 15. 85 x 12, 105 x 10

Set 1
175 x 1
175 x 1
175 x 1

Set 2
195 X 1
195 X 1
195 X 1

Seated Barbell Press (normal unracking, and continuous repping)

3 x 3

195 for each set

Push Press

5 sets starting at 5 reps and decreasing 1 rep each set and adding 10 pounds every time starting at 165 pounds

For my Leg training I am in preparattion of getting into the Hungarian Leg Training Program

I understand its harsh but I’ve been through 3 weeks of it before…I figure if I condition for it I’ll make it through fine

so I’m squatting 135 for 10 x 10 with 20 second breaks to get used to the continuios timed sessions later on…I’ll start the actual program in three weeks

I carried out the rest of the work out as layed out in the program

Leg Extensions 3 x 10 ( ne set with toes pointed out, in, and nuetral)
Leg Curls 3 x 8 with 10 count between sets.

I got home and popped in my yogA DVD and followed the mid posing for the entire 45 minute program

I’m going back to the gym later I have two new clients to train at the school’s gym, I’ll do some cardio then…As for now I’m studying, sleeping and eating…I’ll post the nutrition and supps when the day is over.

24

BOOSH

25

I freaking love it!

watch out now

26

If you don’t respect that , then your perspective is whack!

27

TRIED AND TRUE

It helps me do what I do!

28

I love it!

29

Meal 1

530 am

14 egg whites
3 Cups of Mixed Vegetables
1 Cup of Oatmeal
1 Glass of .5% Milk

Snack 1

730 am

Protein Shake mixed in Water
a handful of blueberries and another handful of almonds

Meal 2

1130 am

3 Chicken Breasts
A big ass salad with EV Olive Oil
A small Sweet Potatoe

Snack 2

2 pm

1 Cup of Strawberries blended into 1 cup of cottage cheese
6 1000 mg fish oil tabs

Snack 3

430 pm

Protein Shake with Waxy Maize mixed with Natty PB and 2% Milk

Meal 3

630 pm

1 Chicken Breast
1 Salmon Filet
4 Cups of Mixed Vegetables
1 cup of Brown Rice

I’ll prolly have some spinach or broccoli with a steak around 9 and top the vegetable with melted cottage cheese, garlic and red pepper and drink a cup of skim milk

30

I will never make anything of myself until I kill me

31

Meal 1

530 am (start on gallon of water and gallon of green tea with an aspirin)

12 egg whites (with bcaas)
3 Cups of Mixed Vegetables (with olive oil and garlic)
1 Cup of pulverized Oatmeal, 2 slices of pulverized wheat bread, some cottage cheese a banana chocolate protein and natty PB blended with 2 cups of skim milk

Snack 1

730 am

Protein Shake and 2 Egg Whites mixed in Water
Strawberries and almonds

32

The vote doesnt matter but the people who count them do-John Locke

33

Get psycho,

I wanna get psycho,
Run you little bitch,
I want your power glowing, juicy flowing, red hot, meaning of life.
It’s not enough to have a little taste,
I want the whole damn thing now,
Can you dig it?

Need to get psycho,
wanna hear you say it
say, you want it, need it,
Don’t wanna wait until we finish the show.
It’s not enough, you hunger for more,
You’re one twisted little fuck,
And now you wanna get psycho with me,

Need to get psycho,
Wanna hear you scream,
Tell me to take you, scare you, fuck you
After we finish the show.
It’s not enough, you listening whore?
You’re one twisted little fuck,
And now you wanna get psycho with me.

I can feel the blood, flowing through my veins,
Spilling on my soul, and now the hunger’s getting bigger,
Come a little closer now, Pretentious whore and pull my trigger,
Free the violence that is building in me,
I say now end of the ride, murder suicide, Is how I’ve been feeln lately.

Come a little closer now pretentious whore Im reelin with a feeln that I cant ignore,
Need to get psycho, is not a question to me.

34

Handlin my musiness

can I get a witness?

35

Heavy? You want it HEAVY?

36

Either we hang in there together or we hang out there seerately

37

It’s not so bad

38

If anyone is interested, I’m using this 4 times a week

my yoga session

http://thepiratebay.org/torrent/3421770/FREE_Yoga_DVD_Video

39

GET UP
GET UP
GET DOWN WITH THE SICKNESS!

40

I’ve been aching to resurrect the ancients. To bring forth what has built my twisted gains from the shadows. The problem is I’ve wasted too much time in the light, too much time listening to the thought process of those who are not wicked. I’m beginning to want to walk back into the flames that baptized me.

Today, there was a war. The war between good and evil. Needless to say, evil has taken control…with that said, the blackness that filled my soul spilled over and flowed into the weight room. The victim? There wasn’t one, if you have my point of view…pain is my equivalent to your beauty, my torture to your success.

With that said, today’s workout was simple. 1 exercise 30 reps 1 90 minutes long

Power clean 275 30x1 3 minute break periods.

taking a break til Monday, I’m getting back to what made me…fuck whatever you think is right because its in a book or some “legend” advocates it.

IMMORTAL.