Well…I’m not too happy today. After a few tests and Scheduling yet another doctors appointment because my lower back has had this odd burning sensation for quite a while now, on and off, and my sciatica has become a big enough problem to where its screwing with other stuff I have to do. I went to a specialist that my mom and dad go to and have gone to for years. I really like this doctor, never met him, so that was my first time. He was very nice, very understanding of my training and that I do this because its something I find important. Told him of what I did, how ive been feeling, where the pain was, etc. My other family doctor I had been going to completely misdiagnosed me…again. I went through an ultrasound, and had an x-ray done and he concluded that it was either muscular or tendon related injury, come to find out after having a physical, and CT scan ive herniated the disc that sits between the L4 and L5 pieces. Ive been freaking out for the past few days.
I’m more upset because ive been given about 3 wrong answers, and that was time I could’ve spent actually knowing exactly what was wrong, and going about fixing it. Because ive mentioned a shit ton of different things of what I thought was wrong with me, going off of what I was told at the doctors visit. Needless to say, I’m going to stick with the new guy.
I pretty much have to start from square one. He told me to first lose about 25-30lbs, which as you guys all know ive been slowly doing. He wants me to have it off in 2 months, but I’m in no rush to shed that much weight that fast, and ill be damned if I lose my strength progress.
Above all else, I’m fucking freaking out about my plans. I feel like this is going to throw everything off, even my school stuff. I’m not going to be stubborn and keep powerlifting as heavy as I have because I want to recover as quickly as possible.
At the moment I’m probably going to sift through some old 5x5 stuff, or modify a strength training plan and keep volume at a decent percentage, going off of what my maxes are to retain as much strength as possible, because I have been to gym about 3 times last week, but I was barely able to do anything over 75% as far as training goes, and most of the sessions didn’t even last a full 30 mins because my hip was killing me.
I’m home now, called off work, sort of started to cry, but now I’m just angry. I’m upset with myself, but I probably shouldn’t be. I was just so eager to see how strong I could get. I know it takes time, and commitment, and patience, but my form was off by just enough to put me in this situation I am in now. I’m not even sure how to go about recovery. Doctor hasn’t mentioned any surgery, if I even need any. I’m not sure if I should be proactive and start some sort of physical therapy or see a chiropractor on my own. I’m not sure. At the moment, my one assignment is just to cut down. Strength has to be put on hold. Which I’m not happy about.
I feel like I may be being too hard on myself. My mom and hubby say I’m freaking out for nothing, but I like…I take stuff like this seriously, and first and foremost I feel like I’m waaaaaay too young to be dealing with a damn herniated disk.