I’ve noticed during this cycle that I’ve been more emotional than on any of the previous 7 cycles I’ve done. This is the highest amount of gear I’ve run at a time and it’s also the first time I’ve used EQ. I think it may have more to do with the high amounts of anabolics rather than the EQ alone.
I’m running a tri-test blend @slightly over 900mg/wk and EQ @ 500mg/wk, and just got done running Anavar at 50mg/day. So about 1750mg/wk worth of gear along with 500iu/hcg a week.
Now rather than just explain what I’ve been experiencing, it should be noted that there are other factors contributing to the situation that clearly have a profound effect on my emotions. The first of which is the fact that I kicked my fiance’ out. I was able to keep my calm while doing it, but I probably did overreact. I can’t say definitively whether or not I overreacted as the final outcome ended up being for the best. I was absolutely devastated by what I had done and pretty much became a pathetic groveling douche.
Literally had problems breathing. Couldn’t eat for about 4 days and even had problems just drinking protein shakes and water. Was LOSING weight and only went to the gym once and had the shittiest workout ever. Had my final talk with her about a week later and my false hope was put to rest. I felt relieved and felt I could finally move on. It was probably the shittiest week of my life, but I still didn’t feel like “me”.
The night of the final conversation I ended up meeting a new girl. A hotter, younger, smarter girl with a better body and makes more money. I didn’t set out to do that, but I pretty much won the lottery. I’ve spent every subsequent day and night with her. I understand I’m still in the ‘honeymoon’ phase of it all and I’m sure it seems like it would raise flags to some people, but this girl is amazing and is helping me become a better person.
I won’t bore you with all that shit, but basically there have been a couple instances of such intense emotions like happiness/love that it nearly brings me to the verge of tears and I catch myself and I’m just like “what the fuck is going on here?” It makes me think back to when I lived in California about 3 1/2 years ago and I was out one night with a friend.
I walked into the bathroom and this jacked bald dude had clearly been crying. I think we were both caught off guard, but I asked him if he was on anything and he admitted that he was. I can’t remember what he was running but I always remembered thinking, “Jesus Christ, I hope that never happens to me…”
I’ve caught myself being short with people at work as well. I handle some things surprisingly well and others very differently. It’s a different experience this time around and I felt like logging it. I’ll be on the EQ for another 5 weeks and the tri-blend for only 2-3 more. After that I’m switching to a Tren/Prop/Mast blend for 6 weeks and I’ll be adding Winstrol in for 5 of those weeks as well as T3 and albuterol. I’ve started taking the albuterol as of about 5 days ago and I actually dig it so far. It’s nothing at all like clen. I don’t get shakey or the mental fogginess.
Will update more as I have time…