I recently started a cutting cycle using a supplement, based around a dose of 550mg Ephedra Extract(10% Ephedrine) per serving(of which I take 4 a day), and have noticed just about the full array of the usual side effects one would expect from what people will tell you. It has also worked way better than I had dared hope. Possibly, this is because my body isn't used to stimulants since I'm not a coffee drinker and this is my first time using a supplement like this.
I have had some experiences that I did not count on however. As I grew up, I have become less emotional like most people do as they become adults. However, I was sort of dispassionate even as a child. As an adult, the effects were more pronounced. Typically I do not experience any emotion other than at the most a little blood lust or perhaps intoxication with power. There are usually very, very few things that make me happy or sad. And in in a given year, it is highly unlikely that that I have been annoyed or angry at one point during that year.
But if I were to claim that this particular year, I'd be a complete liar. Since I started taking these pills I started noticing that I became more emotional. I didn't think much of it at first, I mean I have been known to experience such things on occasion. But then I forgot to bring something to work, and I could just as easily have brought it another day, but still I got angry with myself. That is when I was absolutely sure that something was up. There is no way that something like that would have bothered me in the slightest. Usually, something like being spit and punched in the face doesn't even affect me emotionally.
Earlier today, I found myself sad thinking about my ex-girlfriend who broke up with me a little while back. At the time, I just saw it as a time saver not to have to deal with her anymore. In other recent news, I laughed really hard at a regular joke recently, and someone stepped in my way earlier today and for a second, I was furious and wanted him dead(I did not show it though).
These occurences are highly irregular and constitute extreme changes from my normal emotional state. I was unsure of where to turn with a question such as this one, so as a long time lurker, I decided to register with the forum. I have heard that Ephedrine is to be avoided for people suffering from depression, and might even induce depression as a side-effect of deprivation, but I ignored those possible side-effects completely since I did not believe that this would be remotely possible in my case. I am not so sure anymore. I feel that I may need to go off these pills if the condition worsens(and still, I know I'm more "normal" now than before, so why complain?).
Questions: Are these side-effects normal? Are the causes of these side-effects well understood? Are the side-effects imaginary, and actually caused by some complex psychological mechanism in my mind?