Yeah, you clearly "researched the fuck outta them"
In all honesty, you need to go do a lot more research, what makes you think something like d-bol will be any less suppressive than test? It will still shut you down.
You definitely do not need to go on now, or anytime soon, you need to know a lot more...
As for your question about varicoceles, it hasn't seemed to hurt me at all and I am about to finish up a 10 week cycle. As a matter of fact, mine didn't really even atrophy a lot, just slightly. If the varicocele is impairing the ability of the testicles to produce testosterone to begin with, then it may slow recovery. It really depends on the severity of the problem.
I also haven't felt the hardness you describe as compared to normal, it feels the same now as ever.