I just need to get this off of my mind, as hard as that might be.
I fucked up and got my first dwi a year and a half ago. There was no way to plead it down. It is on my record as of today--I admitted I was guilty to judge. I didn't want to go to a trial and sit in front of a jury--that would be too emotionally and mentally draining for me.
The incident happened while I was in college. The last year and a half has matured me, as if that means anything to them.
I'm on probation for a year. There are close to 6k worth of fees over the course of the next three years involved with that. That is alright, I can always make more money, even though it it rather scarce now.
What really gets me is this fact. I am not allowed to drink period. I am not allowed to go into bars, at all. This means that I cannot have a beer in my own house or at a friend's for one year. That is fundamentally wrong. They are asking a lot taking this right. At the age of 24, that is all my friends do. Work, pump iron, and then hit the bar, rinse, repeat.
This is calling for a huge change in my lifestyle. If I do drink and get caught, that is 180 days in jail. I'm torn apart right now and not sure how to deal with it.