This is not a thread to brag and may be a good topic for the old dudes to share insight.
In the eternal quest for the “meaning of life” why do you do what you do, are you sincerely fulfilled or you find yourself bored, after reaching a certain stage in life do you lose your drive or does it just turn in to a background buzz of monotony?
Here is my lengthy (and common) back story:
I like to grab the bull by the balls. As a kid this manifested itself athletic competition, making good grades if my parents laid out incentives to achieve correctly, boyscouts (yes, this organization has a competitive element/building nature) et cetera.
As I got older I joined school sports teams, became an officer in FBLA (Future Business Leaders of America) as an interest but also because it was something new to accomplish.
Then in college I did the same, albeit intramural sports, bjj on the side and various collegiate business groups/networks.
Anyways, I’ve always felt driven and always had a why for my what. Because I was always working torwards something, I was rarely bored.
Again I’m not bragging but after leaving college I was given a mgmt/biz development role for a company right out of the gate. (No, not Enterprise Rent-a-Car, Snap tools or any other bullshit). This was a challenge to master.
Long story short, the business slowed down with the economy, the writing was on the wall in general and I knew I could make more money on my own anyways.
I left and formed a business, made it grow over the last two years and it is now more or less on auto-pilot. Steady stream of income, constant organic growth… I really just play a backseat role now and manage a team.
I don’t have a structure to mold in to, no carrot in front of my face (I am the dangler) my goal is accomplished.
I should be happy right?
I’m fucking BORED!!! I’m on T-Nation distracting myself all the damn time for chrissakes.
I feel I’m economically and career wise at a stage in my life most people don’t experience until their autumn years and I can’t help but ask myself “What is the point?” I totally understand why some retired old dude would greet folks at Wal-Mart even if he doesn’t have to.
I have a nice house, sweet ride, take fun vacations and have hobbies in general but I found myself feeling more fulfilled as an up and comer at the bottom of the “mountain”.
This is a long rant maybe but what do you motherfuckers do to keep your “purpose” relevent?
Am I just a whiny, nearing 30 year old dude who is having a hard time accepting the next chapter or is there some secret of self satisfaction old dudes know?
I’m in my office posting this, I’ve putted on one of those fake plastic office “greens”, played a flight simulator online, read a chapter of a book, bullshitted with my sales guys… there has to be a more fulfilling use of time.