I want everything at the same time. I dont know what I want now.
My name is Joao, from Portugal (yeah you must have heard a lot of us, we have no money, that stuff...), 25 years old.
I'm here because I need your opinion since Im going nuts here.
Starting point: 5'9'', 132 pounds. Grossly underweight.
I started bodybuilding in 2008, but for 1 year nothing happened really. Late 2009 I came with my first plan.
Well this wasnt really a plan, I just ate all complex carbs, protein and good fats in sight.
Needless to say I gained a lot of fat. I reached 165 pounds in one year and half (!). The good thing is that I have followed a good 5x5 program (Stronglifts), and I managed to gain a good amount of strenght under that layer of fat.
On April 2011, I said to myself I would start to get lost of all the fat I've gained, and finally, about 8~10%, I would start to do a decent, intelligent bulk. I've learned a LOT, from the beggining till now.
I've beend doing CKD from that time till now. No interruptions whatsoever.
This is how I look now. I'm 141 pounds now @ 10~11%. I've lost very few strength during this cutting season. 1 pound every week, steady loss.
Although I look better now, I'm still frustrated because I KNOW I NEED to gain some serious, clean weight, but thing is, I would also like to get my abs visible before I do that. It's not that I reached any plauteau, but Im getting scared on losing so much weight and still abs not visible.
It's really frustrating for me not seeing abs till now. I'm really strict and have high discipline with my diet and training, but I just cant see them.
Just to be clear: I am not ab obsessed, actually I never used to care about it, but now that I lost so many fat, I get that feeling like "man I was so close...". I dont even train abs for gods sake. Or curls. My training is just deadlifts, squats, rows, etc.. Still, I am afraid that I put a lot of fat - again - on my next bulk, if I dont get really, really, lean now. That's OK, you always put on some fat, but I dont want to look ridiculous like last time. That's why I think a very lean base would help me out. But hey, I'm not sure if I'm thinking right.
I'm continuing KETO and taking normal supp: CLA, carnitine, green tea and oxyelite pro. Add to that the year round fish oil, flaxseed oil and multivit.
I'm not really interested in getting some kind of rate here, because I already know it's gonna be way low! Im not happy with it either, I know I have a long way to go, but I couldnt find any place else where I can place my photos.
So, may I ask you what is your advice? To be honest, I've been thinking about this to the point that I dont even have a clear picture of myself now. Do I JUST dont have the muscle mass for the abs to show? Water retention? Because, even though I'm thin, why do some people always get to see their freakin abs no matter if their thin or fat or whatever..? Or could it be some fat on midsection, which means I should continue cutting even though my weight is already so low? Or, am I just being a chicken and should I just start a god damn bulk?
Thanks a lot, and great community you have here. Cheers
PS: If any admin thinks that this thread belong to another section, feel free to move it. Thanks.