Wow, this is really helpful, thanks.
Do you know what your testosterone levels were like before the med and after?
I still haven’t fully read KSman’s stickies fully, but plan on doing so stat.
In my case, I was given Prozac as an anti-anxiety but they also worked to take the edge off. Kinda gave me energy and helped me be more ignorant to my depression. Killed sex drive, but at the time I began taking them was taking 23 college units (6 classes) and was in a committed relationship with my textbooks.
However, I also realized that it helped my mood, and like you said, it really took the edge off. I felt more positive emotion than negative, and felt a lot more centered. Couldn’t feel “great” and really, really excited, but also couldn’t get low. Felt robotic and objective, which I guess was okay with me. Now, without it, I feel like my temper is a lot shorter. For instance, my bench is terrible (I’m 5’10" ~185 and benched 95 lbs for 10 reps x2, and 97.5 for 3 reps)… really bad numbers. Ended up bitching about it to one of my really good friends, and they reminded me that it takes commitment to make gains, which I know is obviously true, but I wasn’t making gains before when I was committed.
Needless to say, I responded rather hastily and immediately felt terrible and regretted it. I feel like on Prozac I would’ve just been fine. Now, if I was on Prozac that conversation probably wouldn’t have happened since it regarded TRT, and I specifically got off of Prozac in order to get on TRT, but I digress. Same thing with hanging out with friends, since I don’t have the energy, I don’t seem to want to go.
Regardless, I’m more hopeful that testosterone will do more for me than antidepressants ever have.