Im in a right conundrum. Last year I got married on a beach and turned 30. Before this I dieted and trained hard for it. I got to around 6% bodyfat@77Kilos. Arms were 16 inches, waist 28-29inches. I really did nail it. I looked f~~~ing awesome. I’m only 5’8 with a small frame. I swore i’d never diet again like it. I was miserable for 20 weeks. I couldn’t socialise properly.
I looked awesome but felt absolute crap. I loved it on holiday, the looks the reaction, the adoration, all that stuff. But i was adamant i wouldn’t do it again. I feel I had peaked (especially in terms of bodyfat levels) I cant get any better. Get the picture
I’m not asking for advice on how to do it again, I know how too. I recorded the lot, along with modifications to improve it.
Now my conundrum is this. I really don’t know if I should bother again. I have been gradually dieting down again for about 10 weeks to about 13% bf with socialising meals here and there. But i done these intelligently by training 1 hour or two before the meals. I have 12 weeks til I go away again to same resort for 2 months.
Seeing the same people, who have seen me year in year out making improvements. My head is spinning. I haven’t enjoyed a summer here in years (ya know, ice cream bbqs etc)I somehow feel i’ve peaked but at the sametime i would let myself down and other people who expect it, if i didn’t try again. I have been supplementing and eating clean most days… but i just f###king want to do what i enjoy…eating good wholesome food.
Not junk, but homemade kebabs, bbqs etc. I cant get anywhere near last year by doing that though i know that. I’ve read pheonix rising, physique clinic and just about anything else i can find. My head is spinning. By the way My fire was cancer at 21. Also I am bored with just about everything else in life. Job, Living with wifes mother, where i live and also I haven’t got many friends. Only a Turkish couple who cook fantastic food!! That is the reason for going away for thjree months to try and sort my life out.
Please help sort my head out. I’d appreciate your wisdom Shugs.