Nooberific, I appreciate you giving me the straight talk. You are right unless I am flexing I really dont look like I lift. I get that a lot. I have not really worried about it because I let the lifts and the progress in the lifts do the talking for me. But honestly just a few people really know how much I lift, I am doing this for me, it is a lot of fun. I started 3 years ago really low. I was a desk jockey for many years and did not train. When I started training 3 years ago my total test was at 250 and I had no clue how to eat, and was doing 5/3/1. I have been on trt for 1.5 years and my total t is around 1100. My levels have been the same for the entire 1.5 years.
Now the lifts are Squat 400, Bench 270 touch and go, 460 deadlift. I am doing my first meet in a couple weeks. My friend told me you dont have a total until you do it at a meet on the same day. I know my numbers are not world class but I want to get something on the board and then try to beat it the next meet.
I still have a long way to go, these are not anything to brag about on this site but for me starting and 215, 155, 230 they are great and I am happy with them. I am a very serious lifter there is just still a lot I dont know. I went on the GOMAD diet last year to gain weight and all I did was get fat. That was dumb, I hired a coach this year and he helped me lose some bodyfat, I look much better now than 3 months ago.
I agree with you all, whatever progress I get this summer from a cycle I could get on my TRT dose, I get that. The problem is, I have a group of friends I email every day who are experienced lifters (Olifts). They are either current record holders or former ones. These guys know there stuff and are in top shape. I have watched some of them go from the top of their game in their early 40's to going way down in their late 40's. I know lifting at the top of my game will not last forever.
The reason I wanted to take a cycle this summer was because I have more time in the summer to train, eat, sleep, and at age 34 if I could semi-safely speed up my performance I could hit levels down the road 5-10 years from now that I could not have gotten to without extra supplements. I give myself two shots a week and I am feeling great. I thought why not put a little more oil in the shot and enhance my current situation and get to my future potential a little bit faster. A few hundred bucks for me is pennies compared to time. I have friends that are no longer with us, and it makes me think, my lifts are getting solid, I have a good training program, eat right eat big this summer and play a little catch up. I started to get in the game a little late (early 30's) and ever day I try to lift as hard and optimal as I can.
If this sounds reasonable tell me what to eat and I will show you the progress. If this is a pipe dream I can hold off. I am having a lot of fun lifting and getting stronger. This is a great sport and a great website, thanks again for your help.