It seems weird in a way that I'm so comfortable sharing this with everyone here, but i truely need help. I have been diagnosed with depression which has become clinical. I have had occasional thoughts of suicide as well. Its killing me. I am constantly inside my own head, dwelling on all the bullshit in my life. Just this weekend my girlfriend of 3 years says she doesnt want to be with me and shit... Its really fucking with me.
With that being said, I can not eat at all. I struggle to fall asleep. And when i get into the gym, the one place that makes me feel like a million dollars, I crack, start panting randomly, then become mentally and physically weak to the point that i end up leaving the gym.
What do I do? I am on an anti-depressant, was working great for the first 2 weeks. I also am going to talk to someone as well. I'm being proactive about this, but there must be other people on here that feel the same way i do right now.
What does anyone else use to fuel their workout when they feel like falling off the face of the earth?