Thanks for the input. Ive probably been feeling like this for a little over a year. Usually feel ok when training... its something i can focus on and try to improve upon which helps. it is something that helps to keep me busy and keep my mind off things. But its been hard to even force myself to go to the gym because its really felt pointless.
As far as eating correctly, I dont think I ever really eat an amazing diet (especially compared to some on this site) but I dont eat shit all day either. When i do get really down I even have a hard time forcing myself to eat in the dining halls because of my social anxiety problems. Then i start to lose my apetite and drop a lot of weight. maybe diet is the first area i can improve in?
im not doing so well in college. As far as grades go, they arent great. I have a really tough time focusing when Im studying or reading and again, it feels pointless to me. Social life has not been good either.. havent really met anyone new that I would consider a friend