I don't want to speak for BBB, but I think what he is trying to say is, to use a small amount of Test to get yourself back on track psychologically. After this it will be easier for you to get your natural Test production back up and running. View the Test Taper sticky thread at the top of the forun for more information regarding tapering. Perhaps BBB will be kind enough to clear up what he was trying to say.
I'm not sure why you are speaking of steroids as if they were a narcotic, saying that you don't want to "load" your body with "roids" and that you have to stay "clean". If you knew what was best for yourself than you wouldn't have bothered asking for advice in this forum.
I believe you didn't see the expected gains from the Tren, because you didn't dose it correctly. TA has a very short half life and should be shot at the very least once per day. Three times a week dosing is'nt very practical with this ester.
A lot of people experience issues with libido and recovery when using 19-nors, Brook would be a person of note that you would want to talk to about that. He has a lot of experience in this area.
I'm also unclear on how you conducted your PCT. It seems to me that you used your HCG post cycle and not during the cycle. Many would not advise this, as HCG is suppressive to LH production. And perhaps you started a little too soon with the Clomid. With the long ester invovled in your cycle, you probably should have waited a little while before starting with the SERM.