this weekend my friend whom i worked out died.he was car surfing at 60mph and the guy driving eased the brakes and he flew off onto the road.I've known him for 3 years,he was a dumbass but he was also a good friend.
I couldn't stop seeing his face today and most likely failed an AP Bio test because of that.When I was in 7th grade my B-Ball coach hung himself and his wife and son found him.
My friends death brought up that memory and....I have literally felt sick all day.I'd lose my breath walking(I play soccer,that should not happen to me),I'd get hot and couldn't cool off,and I became dizzy for no reason when i went into 6th period where I lifted with him.
He did drink and do some other things,but i had gotten him started on the right road,he didn't drink as often or as heavily in the past weeks,and it hurt me when I found out that his life was ended so short and just when he was doing better.
I'm not used to...for lack of a better word "feelings" like this,i have happy/sad/angry/tired, and not much inbetween, and I don't know what exactly to call what i do feel except remorse/greivence.
Anyway I just wanted to know what will help me get through this(I have honestly believed you can never get over death...)besides time and talking,thank you for your time