Yes you're shut down. And are you a "pro"? I doubt it, so I wouldn't compare your gains to the gains they have. I'm not even sure what your comparison serves to prove.
Are you using any HCG during this 20 week cycle? Probably not because you don't think your shut down, which is absolutely not true. And your post about splitting shots into 2 per week being wasted does not make any sense. It does keep blood levels more stable, there's no way it couldn't. And nothing is being wasted by splitting a dose into two injections as opposed to one.
Honestly, if you don't think you need to take high levels of hormones to grow, I don't see a problem with that and I actually applaud the fact that you would like to use lower doses, as opposed to these 2gram cycles we usually see. Yet, what I don't applaud is the stupidity in all the other posts following your first one.