So I have been a member for a little while now. I have posted with my log and updates and really benefitted from the contributions from all of you guys on here. So thank you foremost.
I am currently going through a real stressful situation personally. I have been reluctant to share on here even though I could have used the knowledge but I always figured it could have been resolved.
It turns out it can not.
Me and my ex partner split 4 months ago - we have a 8 month old daughter together - who I absolutely adore, she is my life.
Things are tricky and I am being prevented currently from seeing my daughter - One minute we seem to be getting along better (me attending her property to spend a few hours with her, going on walks etc etc - to then nothing at all - dependant on how the mum feels)
There is no reason for this, there is no history of violence, no history of abuse - nothing along those lines. I pay my money to her every single month and get her whatever she needs.
Right now i am 3 weeks in to complete radio silence, nothing, zilch. I have tried all methods to communicate - even through her parents but i have had no luck. I believe this is now down to me seeing somebody new and my progression in the gym.
I am now forced to follow legal proceedings even though this was worst case scenario for me and i wanted to resolve without.
My partner has threatened with outing my AAS steroid use, even though i signed up with my coach while we were together and we both agreed that I would be using, There was 1 occasion when my daughter was a couple of months old in her cot (along with her mother) that I pinned - just one occasion. She is now citing that as the reason i wont be seeing my child.
I am so hurt by all this, I miss my daughter more than anything, I am also scared that this is going to affect me seeing her at all in the future.
I am a manager at a blue chip company and have 30ish colleagues in my team, i am also responsible for colleague wellbeing and wellbeing contact/champion for the whole division. I am in no means unstable (as my ex has since said)
This is purely down to the fact she is bitter we did not work out and i am moving on with my life, she has slated me via text message for my transformation posts and posting pictures of my daughter - calling me “dad of the year”
I have been running Test-E & for the last few weeks Mast-E at doses of 300/150 for each compound.
I am sorry for the length of this post, it isn’t something i wanted to do at all but I feel I am running out of options and it is now desperate times. Can anyone at all offer any advice. I would be most grateful. Please.
Thanks a lot