Been lurking and reading my face off for weeks prior to even getting the blood drawn.
weight: 180 (down 15lbs from overhauling my diet AND a major life event, more on that in a moment)
bodyfat: ? 15-20%? nobody is testing now with the virus around but im a typical "lean top and bottom with a belt of fat that accumulated from 3 years of being sedentary and a P.O.S.)
gym history: have been an on again off again gym rat for 15 years. Have gotten very muscular for my very light boned frame at one point, gotten shredded several times, and most recently before an injury gotten to my strongest and largest muscle mass.
current activity level: full body lifting program (5.3.1) 3x a week and prior to the virus BJJ 3x a week
Definitely lost a lot of “zest” over the years but its hard to say because its slow and you get used to it
Libido has definitely taken a dive in the last several years and even when the ex and I were not fighting, i never have the “desire” to start…however…whenever SHE initiated ive had zero issues with erections during the activity. Orgasms however have been lackluster for sometime, and are often retarded which specifically could be psychological, but it does fit into the symptom tree.
A month ago a 6 year relationship came to a very unexpected end. It wasn’t a good one, tons of stress and fighting over the years, however i was as all in as I could be. The day I took my bloodtest, I had only gotten 2 hours sleep after coming to the decision I was going to propose the next day ( that didn’t go well). It’s safe to say that was the most stressful 48 hours I can recall in my 40+ years kicking around this place.
If my test was damn near 500 while under THAT much stress, is jumping on the train even something that should be considered?
Is my free test number the key to what I should be concerned about and how much could THAT be influenced by how far my head has been up my arse the last 90 days?
One part of me thinks I should wait 6 months until the smoke from this personal situation clears and re-evaluate.
Of course the windmill clinic i went through was screaming about how “low” my test was so they can make the sale.
A couple of my buddies who are lifers and competitive lifters say regardless of how high it would be on a good day its time for me to get going with this because they say i dont even realize how much better I will feel.
ok, have at it. I have thick skin, and provided all the above information to avoid as many follow up questions and wasting of time as possible.
It is what it is.
oh, previous gear: 2006 did a Tbol cycle…it was a good time…lol…i was young and dumb…tno pct, didn’t have any noticable issues at all getting back on track