For some context, I have been lifting for some time, but all for the performance of my sport, wrestling. I have wrestled all my life, and was even recruited to wrestle at Rutgers this past year, but unfortunately had to decline due to the development of an eating disorder through the sport. This is where my problem lies. I finally have the opportunity to train for size.
All my training up to this point has been done in a caloric deficit as I have always had to keep my weight down for wrestling. 106 my junior year, 113 my senior year, and recruited as a 125 for college. The problem is that when i try to put on weight I always end up looking, or at least feel like i look puffy and just chubby.
I am currently 5’6", 19 years old, and 150 pounds, at an estimated 14.4% bf. My current lifts are a 315 squat, 195 bench and 365 deadlift. As soon as i feel this puffiness, I just end up cutting, and never obtain my quest to put on size. So my question would be how to go about putting on size so that I actually look like I lift? I no longer have to worry about my weight as I am done with wrestling. Which template should I use, and how should my diet look? I am overwhelmed with this process as I’ve never gone on a true journey to actually become more muscular. Yes I want to get stronger, but my real pursuit is looking like I lift, I have been small all my life, and want to change that. I’m sorry if this is looked down upon in this forum, but just giving all the information i can.
Thank you all for help!