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Chemo, Radiation and a Stem Cell Transplant

First things first if you’ve been following the INDIGO project, note the girls noises at 6:25ish in the link below. I’ll just leave it at that. Although I wouldn’t mind seeing that at my gym.

On another note, today was great. My left elbow has arthritis pretty bad, so I sometimes feel the other side of my body compensating on pulling movements. I can notice this when I’m doing chins or pulling the way my left arms rotated in comparison to my right. I’ve been doing neutral grip pull ups/hammer grip and I’ve had this before in the past on neutral grip pressing and pulling movements. It’s just a slight discomfort in my shoulder. Hopefully it does pass though. I’m over pains after spending the last 2 years with so many.

“When I say “time is an illusion” , my intention is not to make a philosophical statement. I am just reminding you of a simple fact - a fact so obvious that you may find it hard to grasp and may even find it meaningless - but once fully realized, it can cut like a sword through all the mind created layers of complementary “problems” Let me say it again : the present moment is all you ever have. There is never a time when your life is not “this moment” Is this not a fact?”

This is true. Whenever you’re not doing something or focusing on doing something, you’re focused on the past or the future. Whether it be through thought or imagery, it’s entirely true. I think this could be the reason why me and many T-Nation enthusiast can find so much joy from training. When we’re training, we’re not focused on anything else that may be going on in any aspect of our lives in anyway. Training has your mind occupied and has you focused and alive. For that amount of time everyday that you train, you’re living the “present” “The Power of NOW” talks about how joy is only found during the “NOW” but explains how 90% of the time people are not in the “NOW” I think the gym is a testament to this. In order to be on the “NOW” you have to be 100% dedicated to the present moment. In these moments you will be in a state of joy and fulfillment. Looking back on this, thinking about being in the gym. This is completely true. I’m going to try and work on creating this sensation through activities outside the gym, because we obviously can’t be in the gym 24/7. enough of that though, starting to sound like I’m losing it.

“All negativity is caused by an accumulation of psychological time and denial of the present. Unease, anxiety, tension, stress, worry - all forms of fear - are caused by too much future, and not enough presence. Guilt, regret, resentment, grievances, sadness, bitterness, and all forms of non forgiveness are caused by the past, and not enough presence.”

Also true, if you focused on nothing but the present you wouldn’t feel any of these things. They would literally be impossible to feel or think about, but at the same time I think it would be completely impossible to totally drop thinking about the past or future. Again, I’m off this shit before I start sounding schizo.

Training was good today. Tomorrow’s strictly a gymnastics day. These days are fun. Good chance to focus on something unique. I can’t wait to bust out a front lever at the local commercial gym. Still a loooooooong way off, but I can assure you…it’s happening. Like I said, I’m working on L-Sit, Front Lever and Hand Stand Push Up. I think Hand Stand Push Up will take the most time by far. I just can’t see the progression panning out to easily or smoothly, but we’ll see. I hope to have covered major ground on all 3 moves by New Years. That’s 5 months worth of working on them. Damn. Coach Sommer says patience is key and I can respect that. Nothing good ever comes without passion. Tomorrow will look like this

L-Sit - 1st progression 10x6seconds=60 second total
Front Lever - 1st progression 10x6seconds=60 seconds total
Hand Stand Push Ups - 1st progression 3x5 reps

Looks quick and easy, but the workout is probably a good half hour. Leaves you pretty gassed with a good sweat. 45 second rest intervals are recommended.

As I was working out today a buddy of mine came and talked to me. After talking to him, I found out his dad was recently diagnosed with cancer and apparently things are not looking to good. 10 months is what they gave him. Not that it means shit. I told him I know a couple great doctors at a couple great hospitals and anything he needs, I’m there, 100%. His dad’s actually seeing an oncologist that I see here back home in Canada and she;s now familiar with the National Cancer Institute where I was treated and I’ve helped her steer some patients there. Hopefully she can do the same with my buddy’s dad. Sad stuff. Really made me think about not only how lucky I am but how lucky I was to end up where I did. I ended up where I did after a long ass road and by complete chance. Really made me think of how lucky I am considering it seems like everyone I know and meet with cancer is dead within a couple months, even when things look good.

Today wasn’t all bad though. I realized there’s still great things happening to people around me. This keeps me going and gives me hope. A mutual friend of mine, who’s also a great lifter’s getting married this weekend. It’s pretty crazy to think about it, but puts a smile on my face. I swear it was just yesterday we were lifting in the gym without a care in the world. I don’t know if he was thinking about this at that time, even though he’s older than me but I sure as hell didn’t think he was. What seems like yesterday is actually 2-3 years ago. Times were so much simpler back then. It’s great to see how far the guy’s came though. Career, marriage. Always great to hear about someone who works hard having great things happen to them deservingly. All the best Kop!

Anyways, not much time on my hands tonight. Post back tomorrow, cheers.

Tomorrow I’ll elaborate on how lucky I was to end up where I ended up and how I came to end up there. Said it once and I’ll say it again…2010 was a wild year.

“Faith consists in believing when it is beyond the power of reason to believe.”

I don't like to touch on it too much, because it's over but when something has happened in your life that forever changes the way you thing, look at and feel about anything and everything, it's probably worth grinding on a little bit.  Also I said I'd post it, so here it goes.  I don't want sympathy or petty, because as you'll see at the end.  I was one of the lucky ones.

5 years ago it was discovered that I had the genetic mutations or chromosome abnormalities Monosomy 7 and Trisomy 8. Now when you have these genetic mutations or chromosome abnormalities it’s often tough to say what the eventual outcome of the situation will be and that’s a fair point.  But in my case with the genetic mutations Monosomy 7 and Trisomy 8, which are 2 of the most aggressive and unfavourable genetic mutations, along with blood counts decreasing at an exponential rate over the course of years, revealed through repeated labs and Blasts cells (which are your Leukemic cells) increasing at an exponential rate over the course of years, revealed through repeated Bone Marrow Biopsy’s, along with numerous other cytogenetic abnormalities, it’s incredibly obvious where it was headed.

So anyways it was May 2009 and I came home from school for lunch.  Sick Children’s Hospital in Toronto calls.  They told me I have dangerously low blood counts and that I need to go see SOMEBODY right away.  I said “Alright, I’ll be there in 4 hours, thanks for calling”  They said " Now hold on a minute.  You’re not coming here, you’re 18 now" So I asked to speak to my doctor who’s a world renowned oncologist/hematologist and had been following me for years.  Anyways he refused to get on the phone with me claiming " I was no longer a patient there and that I was no longer his responsibility"  Now this was a problem for me because at my prior appointment with this man we discussed how I would be turning 18 and that I would need to be redirected across the street to Princess Margret’s Hospital because that’s the adult sector.  I signed release forms and filled out all the necessary documents so that it could be set up and facilitated, but yet it was never done.

So here I am 18 years old, listening to this on the phone, sitting at home on the couch with dangerously low blood counts, in need of immediate medical attention and yet I was thrown out on the streets, with no doctors, nowhere to go.  At this point the situation was new to me and I didn’t know what these lab numbers that they read off to me meant, they we’re just numbers to me.  After being told that there’s no one to go see in Windsor, I decided to get in my car, drive 2 hours to London and go to the emergency room.  Now when a kid walks in the emergency room and says " Awww I think I have dangerously low blood counts and need to see somebody"  It’s a rather confusing situation.  I was some kid trying to reason with the triage nurse saying " Awww yeah, Sick Children’s in Toronto called, they told me I have dangerously low blood counts, but they also said I’m not their problem because I’m 18."  Finally after pleading my case in the Emergency room and attempting to explain this rediculous situation they decided to draw blood of their own from me to access the situation.  Once the lab results came back, they concluded I definitely had some major blood abnormalities and needed a blood transfusion.  After reviewing my labs and giving me 2 units of blood they decided that I needed to see somebody because I was in obvious need of medical attention.  I was given an appointment with an oncologist at the hospital ( London Health and Sciences Centre)

Dr.Kang Howsan-Jan  was his name.  To see what was really going on he needed to perform a Bone Marrow biopsy on me.  Dr. Howsan-Jan told me that the Bone Marrow results were unchanged from the previous one.  I said “Wait a minute? my last Bone Marrow Biopsy was probably over a year ago?”  He then went on to diagnose me with Myelodisplastic Syndromes.  He told me that I would require a Bone Marrow Transplant.  If I didn’t find a match within 18 months I would develop Acute Leukemia.  If a match still wasn’t found at that point then I would die.  He told me that in the meantime there was nothing they could do for me.  Theres was no medication, no treatment, not even any clinical trials available.  So I go home and continue to live life just as I normally would.  Now within 2 weeks if that appointment with Dr.Howsan-Jan I was living at the hospital in Windsor.  My Hemoglobin was 52, my Platelets at 2, my Neutrophils at 0 and my White Blood cell count at 0.2.  I spent majority of my summer living in the hospital in Windsor.  I had thrush and mouth sores, I was losing weight at an exponential rate, I was in so much pain I couldn’t even move, walk, eat or drink, I was having nose bleeds, fevers, chills and bloody urine/stools.  Doctors asked me who I had been seeing and who was looking after me.  I told them “Aww basically no one” I then told them how Dr.Dror bailed on me and through me out on the streets and how Dr.Howsan-Jan told me to “go home” theres nothing we or anyone can do.  Once again I was faced with blank stares and confusion.  They looked at me and said “You’re dying…your body can not survive in the condition it’s in.  You’re telling me this is your situation and you have no doctors looking after you or following you, let alone anybody treating you or intending on treating you?”

I remained in the hospital in Windsor for majority of the summer, dependent on blood products, IV hydration, IV nutrition and numerous other IV medications.  Doctors in Windsor decided that I needed to go see my hematologist/oncologist in London because obviously something needed to be done.  Finally when I was able to leave the hospital, even though I wasn’t supposed to because I was in such poor shape, but needed immediate medical attention I went back to London for an appointment.  When I went to go to my appointment with Dr.Howsan-Jan in London, a man walked in the room, starred at me and then I proceeded to ask him who he was.  He told me that when I come there, it’s a team of 6-8 doctors and that I would see whoever happened to be available.  After we cleared that up he goes “Hold on I forgot your name, let me go check” This man knew absolutely nothing about me or my condition.  I explained to him the situation and what had been happening since the last time I had been there.  I described my symptoms to him and explained that things had gotten worse and these were not symptoms typically experienced in patients with Myelodisplastic syndrome.  I begged him to repeat a Bone Marrow Biopsy because the status quo had obviously changed.  He told me " No we know what you have, you’re going to need a Bone Marrow Transplant and in the mean time there’s nothing we or anyone can do.  We’re not even going to bother setting up anymore appointments"

Eventually realizing the state I was in, realizing nothing was being done for me and that I was going to lose my life for no reason, I went to the states.  I got my medical history and records to my physician when I went to the U.S and when I first met with my physician he didn’t even want to take me on as a patient.  He told me “I will not be responsible for your death because these guys in Canada have not been doing anything for the last however many years”  He explained to me that I should’ve been put on the Bone Marrow Registry years ago and then proceeded to ask me “How long have you been on treatment, chemotherapy and what not?” I looked at him with confusion and said “I’ve never received any treatment and they never intended on giving me any…and by the way I need chemotherapy?” He looked at me in amazement and said “Who was looking after you previously?” I told him Dr.Dror at Sick Children’s and Dr.Howsan-Jan in London.  He could not believe it considering no doctors should have made these mistakes, let alone top specialists in London and Toronto.  You see I was a kid and I never wanted to go to the States for treatment, but when you have guys telling you to go home there’s nothing we can do for you versus guys across the river telling you, come here, we’ll save your life.  You don’t have to be sick and probably never did.  What do you do?

When my friends were going to school, I’d wake up at 6 A.M, drive 2 hours to chemotherapy, do treatment for 8 hours, drive 2 hours home, go to bed and do it all over again.  I spent about 6 months in Michigan doing various chemotherapy regimens.  Unfortunately by the time I got to Michigan things had been let go for so long that chemotherapy was relatively ineffective for me and was never going to be the ultimate cure for me, but was just meant to control the disease and keep me breathing until I hopefully had the opportunity to get a transplant.  Now I don’t think you understand.  I had no insurance or medical coverage in the U.S.  I was 18 years old, dying and meanwhile I was fundraising to save my own life.  You had kids, random people scrubbing down cars so that I could afford to live another day.  Not to mention my parents giving every single penny they had and selling their assets so that I could have the possibility of living.  Kids, random people and the community did more to save my life than any of my doctors in Canada ever did.  That’s pathetic.  There were times where I would be in the hospital in unimaginable amounts of pain but I wouldn’t ask for anything because I could not afford it.  I met a man in the hospital.  He was in the room beside me and also had AML, without the genetic mutations Monosomy 7 and Trisomy 8 but less aggressive AML.  Now he was older than me but technically in much better shape.  One day we were talking and I met him, was a nice guy.  I wake up the next morning and friends and family are outside his room crying.  I asked my nurse " What happened?" She says " Oh ahh, his white blood cell count was low, he got in the shower, ran a fever, we couldn’t control it…he died"  Do you know what it’s like to hear that? I mean here I am in a lot worse shape and I don;t even know if it’s safe to get in the shower.  I don’t think people like Dr.Dror understand that they’re dealing with with human lives, let alone the lives of children.  Once someones life is lost, they’re not coming back, they’re gone for good.  I don’t think Dr.Dror understands that, I really don’t.

Anyways after 6 months in michigan I had gotten into  remission.  My doctor explained how I needed to go to Washington D.C immediately for my transplant because we cannot sit around on Acute Leukemia, especially in the case of Monosomy 7 and Trisomy 8.  It took me about a week to get to D.C between communication and facilitation and by the time I got there my blast cells were at 25% and I had relapsed.  They informed me that I could not receive my transplant.  They said " Don’t worry about it, we’ll give you 3 more rounds of super powerful, high intensity chemo, drugs that are not typically used, drugs you might not even have acess too, that will take care of your blasts cells, we’ll get you into remission and you’ll get your transplant.  So I did those 3 rounds of chemotherapy and after they were done, they performed a Bone Marrow Biopsy to see where my blasts cells were at.  They concluded that my blasts cells were at 40-50%.  Doctors informed me that if they didn’t transplant me I would die, but if they attempted, they might be successful.  Eventually they decided to give me a myeloblative stem cell transplant, in which case the chemotherapy, radiation and immune suppression leading up to the procedure are at a much higher intensity.  Finally that took care of my blasts cells and I was able to receive my transplant.  I had to move 1000 miles away from home and live in a room the size of my bedroom, going through chemotherapy, radiation therapy, immune suppression, countless other procedures, deal with countless other drugs, medication, ill-side effects, an extra large catheter up my dick and not to mention the common side effects like hair loss, fevers, chills, nausea, vomiting, diahrea, GVHD.  I could go on but the list doesn’t end.

Not a day would go by, not a minute, not a second where I wouldn't think to myself "If someone would have done their job and token responsibility this would have never had to be me" All the things I would have never had to go through, all the things my family would have never had to go through, my friends, loved ones.  The saddest part is when you're lying in that hospital bed dying, making your last wishes, contemplating your life, knowing that it could be over soon and meanwhile the situation could have been totally avoided and then you begin to think and rethink, life, memories, accomplishments but even more and even worse you think about all the time you wasted, all the things you didn't do, about everybody you know, all your regrets.  If I would not have went to the states I would have lost my life and died.  There is no debating that and if anyone wants to, lets do it.

At least when someone passes in an unfortunate event like a life threatening illness your family, your friends and everybody you know had the satisfaction of knowing that everything that was done to save their life was done.  Meanwhile nothing, less than nothing was done in effort to save my life.  I would have lost my life if it wasn't for my family, my friends, supporters and doctors in the states.  No one would have ever known that it never had to happen.  Now I'm a reasonable man and I know you're thinking who's this kid to be saying this, he's a 19 year old kid with a high school education.  He has no right to be saying this, there's no reasonable credibility here.  This kids not a doctor, nor a politician, does he really know enough about what's going on behind the scenes to make a reasonable conclusion on this situation?  The answer's most likely "No"  But am I here saying screw Canada, screw this hospital, that hospital, screw this doctor, that doctor, screw the government, screw the Canadian Health Care System.  No, and that's why I'm here, because Canada's one of if not the greatest country in the world in my opinion and we do have one of the best health care systems on the planet.  We cannot have irresponsible, lazy people like Dr.Dror dealing with the lives of children.  I'll give him the benefit of the doubt and let's say that no matter what the circumstances, no treatment, treatment, whatever, that Dr.Dror did everything he was supposed to, did everything he could and made all the right decisions from a medical standpoint.  That does not disregard the fact that he did not put me on the Bone Marrow Registry, that he did not recommend or set me up with anyone to look after me and that he threw me out on the streets with no doctors and no one to look after me when i was in need of immediate medical attention as a child.  Now this is not a small town doctor we're talking about.  This guy is the Director of Marrow Failure and Myelodisplasia Program for the hospital of Sick Children, his Clinical Care activities include Staff hematologist/oncologist, sections of hematology and Bone Marrow Transplantation, his Areas of Specialty include Bone Marrow Failure, Myelodisplastic Syndromes, his Research Interests include Molecular and Cellular Mechanisms of Bone Marrow Failure Disorders, Mechanisms of Pre-Leukemia and Leukemia in Marrow Failure Disorders and Genetic and Clinical risk factors.  So tell me this guy didn't know better, everyone knows he knew better, he knows that he knew better.

If I would have went home and listened to those fucking morons of doctors, I would have lost my life for no reason, but neither me or anyone of my loved ones would have ever known. Words could never describe how mad this makes me. To think that other people are losing their lives and meanwhile they don’t have to, but neither them or anyone will ever know. That thought could literally make me sick. Maybe I have no right to say these things, maybe I’m the idiot, but I’m past the point of giving a fuck. If no one see’s people dying for no reason, including children a potential problem then I don’t know what to think anymore.

But fuck that shit, it’s over now. All I can do is be thankful. I had everyone behind me 100% and I’m here now. All that matters. Also you’ll noticed I mentioned names and facilities. Some people might not think that’s a great idea, but fuck it. What’s the worst they’ll do kill me? Already tried that shit once…didn’t work.

Oh yeah…training. Went awesome.
A1. Pulley Chest Press - Increased Weight by nearest pin
A2. Pull Ups - Increased Reps by 2 reps

  • Super Set x5

B1.Neutral Grip Chins- Increased reps by 2
B2. Push Ups- Increased reps by 10
B3.Split stance cable push - Increased reps by 2
B4.Split stance cable pull- Increased reps by 2

  • Circuit x 5

Gymnastics Work

Im loving the inspirational videoes, and your inspirational story.
I have some more comments to make about your experience, but I must leave for my soccer game now, but I will come back here later.
So I will leave you with my 2 favourite insprirational videos. Im sure you have seen it;

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Its not about the bike is my favourite book. Amazing read.

So a few questions?

When you say HIIT cycling… what exactly are you doing, ie one minute on/one minute off?? Or are you cycling at a constant particular wattage?
I would be interested in seeing some video clips of your ring work, and what benefits you think it has on your physique? I have always been intrigued by ring work/gymnastics.
Have you considered doing body weight dips? Or is that included with the rings?

Sorry if I missed it in your posts, but is there any particular reason why you dont want to lift weights again?

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Its not about the bike is my favourite book. Amazing read.

So a few questions?

When you say HIIT cycling… what exactly are you doing, ie one minute on/one minute off?? Or are you cycling at a constant particular wattage?
I would be interested in seeing some video clips of your ring work, and what benefits you think it has on your physique? I have always been intrigued by ring work/gymnastics.
Have you considered doing body weight dips? Or is that included with the rings?

Sorry if I missed it in your posts, but is there any particular reason why you dont want to lift weights again?

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Thanks Bird, appreciate it. As for cycling I’m following 10sec on 10sec off at 100% effort for 15 minutes. This is from a suggestion out of “Designing Resistance Training Programs” I simply increase the level of intensity on sprints. Each week I increase that level. I understand this might not be ideal, but Bird, you have to understand that sitting in a bed for 2 years with all the horrendous treatment, nutrition, medication etc, not to mention the disease itself has incredible effects on your body and its abilities. Normal rules and guidelines to training and related areas won;t always apply to me because of my health. I wouldn’t advise anyone to train like me. Anything I’m doing right now is not ideal. It’s simply the best I can do. 10 sec sprints feel long for me. Bioenergetics and sports specific conditioning is also a highly debatable and complex subject as well. I know people who claim to do intervals for a lot longer but remember i’m going 100%. Not saying that sprinting’s the same but to hold maximum intensity for 10 seconds at the track is hard as f*ck. I like to keep it over 100 rpm. I do this because of my knees. Chemotherapy, Radiation and corticosteroids all at absurd doses have destroyed many of my joints and bones. My knees have token it the worst. Major portions of all 3 of the bones of my knee are dead. Hopefully blood supply will return, but that was in an earlier post. Gymnastics work is extremely rewarding. I picked up a copy of Coach Sommers “Building the Olympic Body” The moves are awesome and it gives me something that’s new and fresh to focus on that’s extremely rewarding and motivating. It’s a great challenge and something that no one else in your gym will be able to do. I don’t know about you, but I don’t aspire to be like the 1000 other guys in the gym. I don’t want to be “Jacked” and for the record could we get a definition on that? I don’t even know what it means anymore. The physique benefits are deff there. In particular arms, back and core. Not just core as in what most people think as in “6 pack abz bro” but all the muscles that insert into your pelvic girdle. Helps a lot when it comes down to energy transfer from lower to upper body or vice versa. Bird, I think you’d love to pick up some gymnastics moves. Coach Sommers book is awesome. The moves are either for time or reps. For time you want a total of 60 sec. It’s suggested 6sec, so 10 sets of 6 sec=60 seconds. Right now I’m working on my L-Sit, Front lever and Hand Stand Push Up. Although the book is effective he warns to be reasonable and realistic. Elite gymnast start when they’re very young and weigh next to nothing. The gradual strength and conditioning of all the muscles involved from a young age and the gradual adaptation along with gradual progressive overload of their BW increasing is what = success. A lot easier to start at 40 pounds and slowly adapt then to start off 180 pounds and out of shape. I hope to have these moves by New Years and would be happy with just a hand stand by then. I don’t lift weights right now because my joints and bones are destroyed from treatment. It’s simply painful and un-enjoyable. My doctors don;t want me doing it as well. It’s hard on me to say the least considering it’s a passion of mine and I spend hours a day reading on it and everyday trying to improve my knowledge on the subject a little more. I hope to become a strength and conditioning coach in the future and help people with the proper tools and potential to reach their goals. It’s tough not being able to apply so much of the knowledge that I learn. Don’t have much time, so anymore questions let me know and you won your match yesterday! awesome man!

@Bird

By 100% intensity, I mean 100% effort. I couldn’t think of how to describe it, but I realized 100% intensity in it’s true meaning might cause some confusion. To maintain 100% “intensity” for 10sec would be impossible, if we were talking about intensity as in percentage relative to 1 RM.

“An individual training program is needed to meet each person’s specific goals of realizing optimal training adaptations and performance improvements. Historically, with resistance training comes the quest to find the “best” training program. It is important to understand that what is best for one individual may not be the best for another. Therefore program design is a highly individualized process based on sound understanding of basic principles of resistance training. The process of program design should be based on the understanding of a specific paradigm that can be used to develop, prescribe and modify a resistance program over time. Because the principle of specificity is a major tenet in resistance training, understanding exactly what you are trying to mimic in the weight room is an important aspect of program design. Biomechanical analyses will allow you to chose specific exercises that use the muscles and types of muscular actions in a manner specific to the activity for which training is being performed.”

I think everyone should just think about that and take that into consideration. I also recommend everybody pick up a copy of “The Transfer of Training in Sports” Vol 1 and 2. I’m only saying this because I find it extremely fascinating the way different people train for different sports and how drastically different people train within the same sport. You’ll see a large number of people train the same way, which is most likely properly and then you’ll see some people just making exercises up like they’re training to be in the circus. I see a guy who’s a goalie today punching a dumbbell out to his side, claiming he’s working on his glove hand. Yeah, that’s going to have a lot of carryover. Then I see some asshole who’s trying to improve his baseball swing by attaching a rope to the bottom cable pulley and trying to mimic his swing. Obviously not a high level baseball player so it doesn’t really matter, but it’s safe to say if he did have any sort of swing in him to begin with, it’ll likely be a destroyed pattern of movement or motor pattern if he keeps doing that. I think strength and conditioning in the field of athletics is really misunderstood and there’s way to many self proclaimed people who have no idea what they’re doing, even at a fairly high level. Not saying that I know everything, but that’s why I attempt to learn each and everyday and hope to keep doing so for ever. Pretty thankful for T-Nation as a resource and must say it’s amazing what these guys give away for free.

Workout
15 min HIIT cycling- Increased intensity
A1. Pulley Chest Press - Increased reps

A2. Pull Ups - Increased Reps 


  • Super Set x5 



B1.Neutral Grip Chins-

B2. Push Ups- Increased reps by 10

B3.Split stance cable push - Increased reps by 2

B4.Split stance cable pull- Increased reps by 2 


  • Circuit x 5 


I’ve been increasing every other set and then the next workout increase all sets and altering that approach. So I milk twice the progression. Slow progression is sometimes the best progression. Don’t want to dig myself into a hole right off the bat. I don;t have much time today and wasn’t all that inspired by much. All I did was read a bunch of factual information today, just taking it in. And after my last long ass post I’m tired but anyways I’ll post back tomorrow. Tomorrow will also be a strictly gymnastics moves day…pumped. Cheers.

“Reality is wrong. Dreams are for real.” May not be true, but definitely the way some people need to think sometimes.

So when you say you have increased intensity on the bike, how do you know your actually increasing intensity? Are you just increasing your percieved effort, or are you observing a power/cadence meter?

You make interesting points about training differently for different sports etc. Once again please feel free to critique my training at “the Bird Cage”. Sometimes I feel that im not training specifically enough.

Im looking into getting some rings. Can you give me a run down on the gymnastic equipment that you use? Do you have it all set up at home?

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[quote]theBird wrote:
So when you say you have increased intensity on the bike, how do you know your actually increasing intensity? Are you just increasing your percieved effort, or are you observing a power/cadence meter?

You make interesting points about training differently for different sports etc. Once again please feel free to critique my training at “the Bird Cage”. Sometimes I feel that im not training specifically enough.

Im looking into getting some rings. Can you give me a run down on the gymnastic equipment that you use? Do you have it all set up at home?

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I’m increasing my perceived effort, while looking at a power meter.

Funny you should mention that. I’m actually reading on some soccer training right now. After reading you log and recently meeting someone who plays D1 soccer, I was intrigued to see what exactly the physical challenges of soccer are. I’ll have to look at your log more closely and maybe I’ll find some suggestions or questions to raise. No worries about me following, I’ve already subscribed to “the Bird Cage”

For gymnastics equipment I use, parallel bars, a straight bar (chin up station or bar) and rings. I have it set up at home, but also have access at a near by gym.

No training today. I’m in a fucking bitter mood to say the least and this spill might be excessively explicit. I woke up today and my knee is fucking killing me. It’s as if I’m paralyzed. Just wake up and it’s like that. You get pretty fucking sick of having your body be a complete piece of shit everyday for years on end. How the fuck does this even happen? I just wake up and it’s like this? Basically can’t move and it feels as if my knee could bow inwards at any moment. Don;t ever take your health for granted. You never know when your body could turn into a complete piece of fucking junk. Mine did, literally within a month. Going to your prime to your absolute worst within 30 days is pretty unbelievable. Also I may or may not be aloud back at the cancer clinic. Fucking stupid cunt of a receptionist was giving me a hard time as usual, because I’m young and she thinks I’m just going to take shit from her. Some dummy bitch behind the desk, who has a fucking 2 year, piece of shit, meaningless degree that doesn’t prove or mean a fucking thing thinks she can give me shit because she’s a fucking overweight, piece of shit, that’s lazy and doesn’t want to do her fucking job.

I go their in a wheel chair, and I tell her I need to speak to someone about my recent lab results. When you have a cancer or blood disorder, you become a “numbers guy” always curious to see where things are at as far as blood work etc.

She snaps at me and says “You can’t just ask for you test results! you’re a kid! The oncologists looks at the results and then we call if there’s anything wrong!”

Funny because I just had an appointment with the oncologist and she told me about my liver enzymes being out of control from labs that are about a month old and I didn’t receive a call. It’s now one month later, they were already out of control and that was a month ago, I want to know how they’re doing now. Are they fucking quadruple what they were or do we just leave it up to faith? no big deal who needs a fucking liver?

Sitting in a wheelchair I tell her I need pain meds refilled and she says “CALL THE PHARMACY!”

What do you mean call the pharmacy?

" CALL THE PHARMACY AND TELL THEM WHAT YOU WANT!"

What do you mean call the pharmacy? I’m 20 years old, I can’t just call the pharmacy and tell them what I want? oh yeah “Hey my names *** not that it means anything, but anyways give me some dilauded, some morphine and throw in a large pizza and a 6 pack we’ll you’re at it. Wait, hey mom, you want anything?” How the fuck do you expect me to do that?

As she sits their in shock, considering not many people are used to someone talking to them like that. I had to ask her “What the fucks your problem anyways? what? you having a bad day? join the fucking club moron, everyone sitting in here’s got fucking cancer, not to mention half of them are probably going to die. You’re pist off because your job sucks and you’re fucking lazy? If you don;t want to do your job , get the fuck out of here, there’s 1000 people waiting in line to take this piece of shit job from you”

Conversation pretty much ended their…

Anyways, not that big of a deal to me. If there’s one thing I hate doing it’s fucking around. If there’s a problem, you decide what needs to be done and then you fucking take care of it. I’m an extremely nice guy but I have no time for fucking around, arguing or wasting time shooting the shit with someone that doesn’t mean fucking nothing to nobody. All I can say is don’t ever take your health for granted. If there’s on thing I remember from being in the hospital, it’s how bad things can get in the blink of an eye. I remember going to bed one night, feeling discomfort in the night and waking up the next morning only to look like I was pregnant. My stomach was swollen like I was 7 months pregnant. Was one of the most painful experiences of my life. All the doctors could tell me is that it was a side effect of chemotherapy. I asked “But why does it do that?” they said it’s the chemo. I said “Yeah, but WHY?” and again, I was told it’s the chemo. As much as they do know, there’s a lot they do not. Turns out it was something to do with my lymph, an allergic reaction and a tumor forming in my stomach. Your life and the status of everything in it can be changed in the snap of your fingers. I’m going to go wrap my knee, ice it, take some pain meds and get some reading done. Although it’s a shitty day to say the least, there’s no reason I can;t at least attempt to make the most of it and get some reading done. Cheers.

“Always remember that the future comes one day at a time.”

Im sorry to hear about your knee man. Maybe its a sign that you have ramp things up a bit slower?
Do you take fish oil?

That receptionist sounded like a bitch. I work with people most days, and some people are just dicks.
And there’s nothing you can do about it. Its almost like they are born that way. I think its important not to get too angry about it. I know it’s hard but sometime just being the better person can be the best revenge.
I know I probally dont really understand your situation, but people like that want you to get angry and lose it, although I doubt that she was expecting a response from you like that. I applaud you for sticking up to her. Maybe next time just ask her for an appointment to see your doc, I wouldnt try and organises things through her as she is not the proffesional. Although Im not familiar with the processes in Ontorio.

Good luck with your knee.

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@ Bird, no worries. Took a nap and I’m over it. Situation just unfolded out of pain and anger. The situation’s now dead to me. As for fish oil, yes. Cannot do without it. My pain increases 10 fold without it.

Tomorrow training will resume in the gym…

Todays training felt great. Progression’s coming along nicely. A.M looked something like this :

15 min HIIT Cycling - Had some compression and just applied slight pressure to knee. Didn’t want to test it too much, but it didn’t bother me.

Cable Chest Press- 50lbs x12,x10,x12,x10,x12
Pull Ups- x8,x7,x8,x7,x8
Superset x 5

Neutral Chins - x10,x10,x10,10,10
Push Ups - x60,x60,x60,x60,x60
Split Stance Cable Push - 40lbs x12,x12,x12,x12,x12
Split Stance Cable Pull - 50lbs x12,x12,x12,x12,x12
Circuit x 5

I progress every other set on every session, so the next will look like

15 min HIIT Cycling

Cable Chest Press- 50lbs x12,x12,x12,x12,x12
Pull Ups- x8,x8,x8,x8,x8
Superset x 5

Neutral Chins - x10,x10,x10,10,10
Push Ups - x65,x60,x65,x60,x65
Split Stance Cable Push - 40lbs x13,x12,x13,x12,x13
Split Stance Cable Pull - 50lbs x13,x12,x13,x12,x13
Circuit x 5

***Once I reach 12 reps on all sets, I increase the weight and start back at 10. Except on core stability work. This is where I’ll go a little higher on the reps before increasing the weight because the exercise is sensitive to weight increase.

Read “Explosive Lifting for Sports” by Harvey Newton today and must say, it’s a fantastic read. Although my passion lies with performance training and strength and conditioning as opposed to BB style training or 1 muscle per day training, I’ve always wondered what it would be like to go back. BB usually train doing 1 muscle/body part training a day. Or at least primarily 1 a day. This was something I used to do a long time ago, when I was like 14. I wonder if this is the best way to train for hypertrophy with all that we know about training? I’m only asking because this is how BB’s train. It’s just that I have not done it in so long and when I did do it, I was 14 and knew nothing about training or nutrition. The results I got then, surely can’t be a reflection of the effectiveness of this style of training. I could never imagine doing 16-20 sets of a single muscle like I used to, but at the same time although total training volume of the muscle is high, the training volume of each exercise is low. Doing 4 sets of an exercise at a fairly low intensity % is something I think I could easily do. Whether or not it would be effective though is the question. I know a lot of guys who do 4 sets, 4 exercises, 12,10,8,6 reps. The intensity would be very low in terms of the percentage relative to your 1 RM. I don’t see how this could in any way be effective. I recently asked someone who’s an aspiring BB about it and why it was his chosen method and he responded

"I think it’s what works best for me. I like doing high volume (20-35 sets per bodypart, normally), and high intensity as well, so doing more than one bodypart per day I find to be too stressful. Lately, with the new 5-day split I’m on, I do 2 or 3 per day, but hardly ever two large bodyparts in the same day; normally something like bis and tris, chest and abs, hams and calves, etc.

Intensity, however, is not what you seem to term it as. If you completely fail at 1 rep or 50, as long as you completely fail, you’re using 100% intensity. % of 1RM is more correlative to strength gains, at least for me. I do believe staying within a 4-20 rep range, though, is where maximal hypertrophy is acheived (more around 6 reps for upper bodyparts, and around 20 for legs).

One main key to inducing maximal hypertrophy is definitely to fail at different rep ranges in the same workout. For instance, one thing I like to do often is to start out with a coumpound movement, work my way down to failing around 6 reps, then later in the workout use isolating exercises and fail around 15-20 reps. I feel this is how I often get the best pump and most hypertrophy. I always keep intensity high, though, by using intensity techniques such as forced reps, negatives, partials, etc., to ensure I’m reaching total failure on each exercise."

Since I’m not training for anything specific at the moment, I’m wondering about returning to this style of training in a future cycle. Just for something new and to see what it feels like to do it again. I wonder if I applied all that I know now, if I would be content with the results of a strictly hypertrophy oriented macrocycle where I used only classic BB style training. I don’t know if I agree with not using intensity in regards to using weights that are of high % relative to my 1rm. I’m thinking maybe I could organize it so that they are, but it’d be tricky. I’m not even a hypertrophy guru, I just simply want to see if it works. Anyways I’ll have to think about it. In the mean time I’m going to go cook some food, post back later. Cheers.

“All things are difficult before they are easy.”

“Functional training is any form of training that improves any relevant biomotor ability that does not come at the detriment to other biomotor abilities.”

Good quote from yesterday’s article. Article had some good points about spinal flexion, that I may have not considered before. Although I’m still anti spinal flexion, I could appreciate what they had to say.

Today’s training was just gymnastics stuff. It went something like this:

L-Sit progression on parallel bars = 6 sec x 10 sets = total of 60 seconds. I increased the leverage of my legs and it felt good. I’ll work at this level for 2 more sessions and then increase the leverage, at which point I’ll be at almost parallel. After that point I’ll attempt to force my hips out in front/above my arms/hands.

Front Lever Progression = 6 sec x 10 sets = total of 60 seconds. I have not changes the leverage on this since I’ve started. I do feel the holds becoming much easier but the next progression that involves increasing the leverage and straightening the legs in a long way off. I’m hoping to be able to start working on extending my legs out forward under control by the end of the month.

Hand Stand Push Up progression = 3 x 5. I must say that I’d be more than happy with just a hand stand. I hope these will hope me perform a hand stand regardless of the fact that they’re intended for those who want to perform a hand stand push up.

As some of you may know, I usually make a list of 5 things that I want to get done or focus on for the week. 2 things were eliminate cheese and milk from my diet. In just a short period of time I’ve shed a couple pounds and feel a lot leaner. Not that I’m overly concerned about it, but just wanted to see what the effects would be.

2 recent books I’ve read are “Fundamentals of Special Strength Training in Sports” and “Programming and Organization of Training” they’re both Russian Manuals that I purchased of of Elite and I would highly recommend them both. Not for simplicity sake or for those who want to learn the basics/fundamentals. Great leads to say the least though. Always cool to see the way things are done differently by different people. Not a whole lot going on today, it’s Friday so I’m not going to sit here all night and blog. I’ll post back tomorrow of I have the time. Cheers.

“Nothing ever becomes real till it is experienced.”

-True. Stop reading and referencing irrelevant studies. Get out there and be the fucking studies. It’s like when I was told to come get a particular chemotherapy drug in Canada as a Sub Q injection, but meanwhile in the States I received in IV. Although the studies say “it’s just as effective” my life was slipping away, but had recently been stabilized in the states. I asked my doctor in the states and he said " What studies? I am the studies? I’ve never had success using the Sub Q method and used it years ago before they had IV. Everyone I know has had great success with IV. I don’t need a study to tell me 90% of people on Sub Q have done poorly we’ll 100’s have done incredibly well on IV"

Training was good yesterday. Progressed as planned. It went something like this :

15 min HIIT Cycling

Cable Chest Press- 50lbs x12,x12,x12,x12,x12
Pull Ups- x8,x8,x8,x8,x8
Superset x 5

Neutral Chins - x10,x10,x10,10,10
Push Ups - x65,x60,x65,x60,x65
Split Stance Cable Push - 40lbs x13,x12,x13,x12,x13
Split Stance Cable Pull - 50lbs x13,x12,x13,x12,x13
Circuit x 5

Today was another gymnastics day

L-Sit progression on parallel bars = 6 sec x 10 sets = total of 60 seconds. I increased the leverage of my legs and it felt good. I’ll work at this level for 2 more sessions and then increase the leverage, at which point I’ll be at almost parallel. After that point I’ll attempt to force my hips out in front/above my arms/hands.

Front Lever Progression = 6 sec x 10 sets = total of 60 seconds. I have not changes the leverage on this since I’ve started. I do feel the holds becoming much easier but the next progression that involves increasing the leverage and straightening the legs in a long way off. I’m hoping to be able to start working on extending my legs out forward under control by the end of the month.

Hand Stand Push Up progression = 3 x 5. I must say that I’d be more than happy with just a hand stand. I hope these will hope me perform a hand stand regardless of the fact that they’re intended for those who want to perform a hand stand push up.

I talked to my doctors on Friday and they emailed me back today, saying that I could start doing more weights as long as if felt ok to me. I’ve started writing a program I’d like to follow. It’s a non linear approach with different rep/set ranges on different days of the week. I just can’t find anything that doesn’t support periodization and everything I read confirms non linear periodization being even better. It’s tough, because ideally I like diving a workout up along the lines of stripped down hypertrophy. Nothing works out better than dividing a full body workout into 3 series of supersets, super setting agonists and antagonists with the series being as follows:

-Horizontal Pull/Push
-Vertical Pull/Push
-Quad Dom/Hip Dom

The only ones that don’t cause me any pain are horizontal push and vertical pull. Horizontal pull and vertical push both involve flexion of my arms and cause a lot of pain with my arthritis in my wrists, elbows and shoulders. Hip and quad dom exercises are not even an option with my knees, that’s the reason I started cycling. It’s the best I can swing. This was with large compound, free weight movements though. I I think I could do everything fine except vertical push and obviously hip/quad dom. I’m thinking by doing something like cable chest press as my horizontal pull that I could get away with doing an incline press variation as my vertical push, without it being too much overkill on that horizontal pressing motor pattern/chest. I could easily do something like high incline db or bb press and have it be pretty damn close to a vertical push.

Mon

15 min HIIT cycling

Cable Row/Cable Chest Press 8x3

Chins Ups/Incline Press 8x3

P.M - BW workout

Wed

15 min HIIT cycling

Cable Row/Cable Chest Press 4x6

Chins Ups/Incline Press 4x6

P.M BW workout

Fri

15 min HIIT cycling

Cable Row/Cable Chest Press 2x12

Chins Ups/Incline Press 2x12

P.M BW workout

Tuesday, Thursday, Saturday = Gymnastics days.

Week 2 + 4-5% for all ranges
Week 3 + 8-9% for all ranges
Week 4 - 9x3, 5x6, 3x12
Week 5 - 10x3, 6x6, 4x12

Just an idea, not sure if I’m going to go through with it or not. Game time decision. Have not had a lot of time for the computer lately but, I’ll post back tomorrow. Cheers.

“My experiences have taught me a lot and I’m happy with my learnings, if not with what I went through to learn.”

Throat, Mouth and Eyes are bothering me. GVHD sucks balls. Post back later tonight or tomorrow. Need rest.

Hope your feeling better buddy?
So what supplements do you take? I just invested in some zinc powder today myself.

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Hope your feeling better buddy?
So what supplements do you take? I just invested in some zinc powder today myself.

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Thanks Bird, appreciate it. My eyes, mouth and throat are feeling better. Doc put me on some anti bacterial’s for precaution, but should not be too much of an issue. As far as supplements, right now I just use protein powder and fish oil. Stem Cell Transplants are all bout immune suppression so they don’t want me using anything that has potentially immune stimulating properties. Not to mention the fact that I’m still on a whole wack of medication and potential interactions may be unknown. Supplements that I am a huge fan of though are, Power Drive, absolutely love that product, ZMA, BCAA’s, Creatine, HOT-ROX and Surge.

Training looked something like this yesterday

15 Min HIIT cycling

Vertical Pull - Wide Grip Chins - 5x10
Vertical Push - High Incline Press to replace my vertical push - 5x5

Horizontal Pull - Seated Cable Row - 5x10
Horizontal Push - Cable Chest Press - 5x5

Today’s training was just gymnastics moves

I wanted to run the undulating periodization model that I mentioned a couple posts back, but just can’t handle such high intensity with that kind of volume. I’ve just decided to alternate 5x10 and 5x5. For example next workout will be 5x5 on Pulling exercises and 5x10 on Pressing exercises instead of 5X5 on Pushing and 5x10 on Pulling.

I have a P.M workout as well that simply involves TRX straps where I pick one Push and one Pull and beat the total number of reps achieved each day.

This will in a way be an undulating model because it will work out to be a Day 1, Day 2 type of deal where I alternate the volume and intensity on the same movements. I will start of by adding weight as much as possible —> add reps —> add sets. Don’t have a whole lot of time to post today, spent a lot of time emailing people already. I have decided to try something new with my diet though. I’m only eating 2 large meals a day with the other 3 just being shakes with as much fruit/veggies as I want. With doing this I’m going to gradually add in more carbs and see what happens. This doesn’t mean I’ll be eating shit, I’ll just be less cautious about adding in things like potatoes and rice. I know what most people are thinking 2 MEALS A DAY!!! but fear not. My day typically only lasts about 12 hours during summer break. I have no problem being pretty heavily dependent on Metabolic Drive shake recipes, with fruits/veggies and fish oil. My first meal of the day is a shake meal and then it’s straight to the gym. I’ve decided to start and end my day with shakes, so a typical day might looks something like this :

10 a.m wake up
10:15-10:30 a.m Big Shake with fruits and veggies
11 a.m Train
12 Post workout Big Shake with fruits and veggies
1 p.m Big Breakfast - Bacon, Eggs, Hash browns
4 p.m Big Shake with fruits and veggies
7 p.m Big Dinner - Steak, Potatoes
9-10 p.m Big Shake with fruits and veggies
11ish = Bed

Never really done anything like this except when I have class all day and it’s the best I can do, but with such short days and being in the same dietary habits for years, I figure I’ll try something new. I found myself eating relatively large meals 5+ times a day and I’m trying to kick that habit. I think most people would like to see 3 meals a day and have my morning shake be a meal, but I want something drastically different then what I’ve been doing, 3 meals just isn’t a big enough change. Anyways, it’s just an experiment. I’m just going to give it a whirl for this week and see how it works out. Post back tomorrow, cheers.

“Everyone thinks of changing the world, but no one thinks of changing himself.”

Today was a little depressing to say the least. Woke up and was told I was to go for a brace fitting for my knee. Usually hit the gym in the morning and today was gymnastics day, so I was a little bummed out to have to go do this instead. Anyways, I went there and after we got past the “you’re a little young to be in here” and “I’ve never seen anyone this young here seeing an orthopod surgeon” and “What were you playing when you hurt your knee?” we were able to fit me for my brace. For those of you who don’t know…my body is a complete piece of junk. It’s pretty annoying to be so incredibly physically limited at such a young age and not have many people, especially friends be able to understand. Everyone thinks you get a stem cell transplant hop out of bed and go ride the Tour de France with Lance. I always here people say, I know so and so that had cancer and they do this, that and the other thing now. People fail to understand that cancer and different types of cancer have different severity’s and effect everyone differently. I’ve met people who simply take 1 pill a day and that’s kept them fine and dandy for 50 years. Others get diagnosed and 2 weeks later they’re dead. People don’t understand that it’s not about me being weak or “soft”, this isn’t something I can just go “fuck it bro” and get all psyched up for and start hammering fucking weights, fucking shit up down at the gym and become some legendary, epic success story. I have not had a whole lot of time to post lately and probably won’t once school starts, so I’ll try and keep making an effort, but bare with me. Yesterdays training looked like

15 Min HIIT cycling

Vertical Pull - Wide Grip Pull Ups - 5x5
Vertical Push - High Incline Press to replace my vertical push - 5x10

Horizontal Pull - Seated Cable Row - 5x5
Horizontal Push - Cable Chest Press - 5x10

Like you already know my body is a complete piece of junk. This means Horizontal Pulling is now out of the question. For tomorrow and the future I’ll now just be doing high volume incline bench and wide pull ups/chin ups. I probably will throw in the cable chest press at the end but won’t be able to super set it with seated cable rows. I actually thinK I’m just going to ditch the cable chest press considering that was large part of my previous training cycle and just go really high volume on high incline press and wide pull ups/chin ups. As you all also know I’m hell bent on progression as well, so I probably won’t go super high volume just yet. I’m going to progress with as much weight as i can first, then reps, then sets. This way I’ll milk all the progressive overload available. By doing this movements can be great movements for a long ass time. I’ve never enjoyed adding weight to pull/chin ups though, so for these all add sets and then reps. For progression’s sake it only makes sense that I do that on that exercise.

Today’s training was just practicing my gymnastics moves and my p.m TRX workout.

I do my fair share of reading and after reading every single Poliquin article on this site, I read every single article on his site. After doing that I’ve now started reading his blog. He has a ton of great and interesting information on his site, a lot of which is non traditional. With his insane amount of knowledge he’s passed a lot of basic things like sets/reps and more into complex topics. I read a great article on his blog today about toxins and here were a couple quotes from the article with Dr.Schauss:

"The chemical load in a toxic person may impair their ability to burn calories by about 7 percent. Using the example of someone who normally consumes 2,500 calories a day, the lower metabolic rate would create 47,815 extra calories in one year. ?Typically, if you burn 3,500 calories you lose one pound,? says Schauss. ?Take those 47,815 calories and divide this by 3,500 and you get 13.66 pounds worth of weight gain a year. Do that for 10 years and you have increased your weight by 136.6 pounds and you are now officially obese.?

?It takes 17 elements to make a healthy plant, and we only put three back in. So what happens is this malnutrition in the plants becomes malnutrition in the animals and becomes malnutrition in humans.?

Some mighty interesting facts, I must say.

Tomorrow training will be

15 Min HIIT cycling

Vertical Pull - Wide Grip Chins - 5x10
Vertical Push - High Incline Press to replace my vertical push - 5x5

I’m going to go ahead and increase with sets on chins and sets along with weight used on incline press. Should be a fairly short workout, which is good because tomorrow I’m off to the hospital to meet with a friends cousin who’s 17 and has recently been diagnosed with Leukemia. Apparently things are not looking to good and it was caught fairly late. I’ll go, offer whatever help I can, try and cheer him up and hopefully be able to help him and his family out in some way. When I was in Washington I had an incredible physician and 2 things that he told me that I’ll never ever forget. They were the most powerful and meaningful words anyone has ever spoken to me. He told me this the first time I ever met him, the first day I got there, when they just found out that I had relapsed and would not be getting my transplant…yet. He told me that:

  1. He will never ever, under any circumstances tell me that I am going to die. No matter how sure of it he is or how much he thinks that I will. He said that he will tell my family that he thinks it’s going to happen, but he will never come in and tell me that I am going to die or how much time I have left. He said he’s seen people who he was certain where not going to be around the next morning when he came in but yet they’re still here today and that was 10 years ago.

  2. He acknowledged the fact that I was 18 and had a disease common in 70-80 year olds. He told me everything he knows, has learned and has read, studies, text books, school etc is irrelevant to me and my situation. He said he’ll push me through every option of treatment whether I wanted it or not because there’s always a chance. It doesn’t matter if it’s a 99% chance or a 1% chance, it was a chance.

I had never heard any doctor speak like that in my life, which was a good thing. He was always extremely calm or at least made it seem that way and it went a long way in the end.

That’s all the time I have though so I’ll be sure to post back tomorrow night, cheers.

Don’t ever let height hold you back kids…4,8…

“By three methods we may learn wisdom: First, by reflection, which is noblest; Second, by imitation, which is easiest; and third by experience, which is the bitterest.”

Hey buddy,

Good to see your training is back on track. But I think you should be more positive in the way you view your body. You have obviously been compromised by disease, but you should not refer to your body as “junk”. Sometimes positive thinking can lead to a positive body.

And as for your handstands; a buddy of mine has suggested that one good way to learn how to handstand is to practice in the pool. First do a hand stand in deep water and gradually move towards shallower water until you dont need any water to do a handstand. Does that make sense?

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