I was a pro-Catholic, baptizd Catholic, confirmed Catholic. I wasn't that conerned with the doctrine as much as I had grown up in it, and it seemed 'right.'
I went to Catholic School for Middle School, and then Military school for high school, it wasn't mandatory but I went to church then.
Then in my first year of college, I kept on going to church.
I stopped but was always supportive. Then got into partying alot and decided to go back and be a 'real' catholic.
Joined Catholic group, studied Catechism, Bible, Aquinas etcetera.
I reached the zenith of my belief when for maybe a month and a half just recently in the shower I 'felt God' as I looked at my forearms.
I thought alot, on whether I was going to become a real Catholic and not Shmatholic, as those Catholics but do not believe there are truly Angels and Demons, that the bible is basically literal and do not compromise their beliefs to modern society.
I broke it all down, and realized to be a 'real' Catholic, you have at some point start believing and turn off your brain to reason. I could go into a million reasons and the practicing Catholics could pull their lopsided justifications to save themselves from questioning it themselves, but that's not the point of this thread.
As I researched further into critiques of the Church, I dismissed most, such as the 'indigenous genocide' bullshit...disease is their fault? Mesoamerican sacrified 7 year old girls, and this is some sort of atrocity that the Spanish destroyed it and the Church embraced it's refugees, and in doing so granted all the non-hispanic natives and citizens RIGHTS under the empire...Anyways small rant.
The main thing is, the Church has been the Confucianism of the West but, it is now a decadent and perverse shadow of its former self. Most notable in it's sex scandal. This scandal is not unique to the Catholic Church, but the fact is, the Church is supposed to be above these things. For the Pope himself to be so knee deep in pederast protection, then it's pretty obvious to me it is a corrupt and dying institution at the end of its life.
All this is so ironic because when Priests have come out and said they were celibate but gay, they have been ejected from the Church, but when a Priests shoves his dick 6 inches up a young boy's ass the church is all...nah nah he can stay...ya....Hypocrital and perverse?
This also made me not only doubt but then fully reject and ridicule the idea of the Pope as the only man in direct Communion with God.
These are my thoughts, I don't really want to argue these points at all, I'm just telling this former Catholic's view point. Aside from a 1000 viewpoints I've always had and had to oppress, come to, that are in opposition to the Church.