Being lonely as fuck, no one to talk to, I only have 2 true friends in my life and I have never once had a friend online.
I even find it hard to relate to my family, my grandma tries to talk to me but she just frustrates me and aggravates me somehow when she tries to talk to me about something even though she is so nice to me.
It makes me tear up inside and want to cry, we used to have such a great bond, I can’t laugh at any jokes because I rarely find anything funny and I usually don’t end up getting most and when she tries to tell me one like I said before I don’t get it and I end up with a sad smile just as an expression of me attempting to laugh along with her, when I was a child we were best friends I don’t know what happened to me.
My father tries to talk with me but I can’t seem to find anything in common with him to talk about, always a dull conversation with me saying ‘yeah’.
I can’t communicate with other people, I have been so socially disconnected that I have trouble understanding when people speak it only hits me 8-40 seconds after I think about it I literally say what 3 times and I still don’t hear and I am extremely quiet and people have this same problem with me.
Anyone know dat feel?