I would think more about yours.
Think about what you describe and then think about what you bow to.
Contrary to what most Christians believe, they have a choice and they choose to worship what I can only describe as a spiteful, jealous and generally unhinged deity.
Sure, he might cuddle you for all eternity, but that IMO is a too high prize to pay for fleeting moments of spiritual security and an eternity of cowed submissiveness.
At least I know where I stand when it comes to celestial dictators.
Terrorist even, because thats his mo, strike terror into the hearts of sheeple so that they will bow to him.
Thank you, but no.