Appreciate all the shout outs folks.
@caesium32 , from what you wrote, this stuck out to me the most
I mean no disrespect when I say this, but this doesn't sound competitiveness at all; it sounds like not liking to lose. Now, don't get me wrong; most folks don't like to lose, but in my experience, competitive people THRIVE on competition and WANT to face the best, because it pushes them to BE the best. If you really are competitive, the best advice I can give you is to bite off WAY more than you can chew.
You gotta keep in mind that the benefits of competition really aren't the competition proper; it's the prep. A competition forces you to start doing the things you weren't doing in training, because you can't just let weaknesses foster anymore.Knowing you have a deadline coming up where you have to put it all out there forces you to have to step up your game, dial it all in, and come in as strong as possible.
I'm actually going through that right now in my own training. I was given the all clear to start training again, and I went into it as hard as I could, but once I signed up for a competition with a lot of events I was really bad at, it really forced me to step it up a notch.
Sorry for the rant, but this is a fun topic for me. I say look at the state records and try to beat them. Once you can do that, set some national ones.
...or go compete in strongman since it's better, haha.