It’s been a long time since I’ve been on the forum. Some crazy shit has happenend in my life since my last post. I’m sure most of you remember my original post concerning my girlfriend which branded me as an asshole. Well about two months ago I broke it off with her, (the really hot columbian chic.) I never told her what happened, but just had to convince her that she would be better off with someone else. To this day she is still hanging on to what she can salvage of what was a good relationship. It’s killing her and breaking me down as well because I still love her, but like many had told me, my guilt began to eat away at me to point where I couldn’t sleep if we were in the same bed. What a freakin’ mess. Anyway, on April 7th I was headed home from a day at work I thought would never end. It was around 1:00am and I was headed home, nearly there too. Well that’s when I nodded off just long enough to go off the beltway and roll my SUV “den of iniquity” down an embankment at 70mph. Luckily there was a state trooper behind me who witnessed the whole thing. He said it flipped about seven times before it slammed into the trees. I was tossed out the truck on final impact and I took a nice slide through the grass on my face. I jumped right up and climed the embankment. Against the troppers advice I darted across the beltway to stand near him. I was all kinds of fucked up at this point. He asked me to sit in his car until help arrived. Once I sat down the shock wore off and I was completely immobilized. I was flown to shock trauma where I spent the next ten days. I broke my neck right at the hinge between my “c6” and “c7” vertibrates for everyone who knows what that means. They are basically the last two vertibrates in your neck where your neck and back connect. They operated on me on the 8th, taking a bone graph from my hip and placing it in my neck along with two titanium rods and 4 bolts and fused it all back together. I am in a neck brace, a “J-collar” which is basically hard plastic with padding. I must where this 24-7 until July 1st. It is not a halo by any means, but I cannot shave or get a haircut because of it, I even shower in it. Its is driving me crazy, and sleeping in it is next to impossible. I am taking no pain meds beacause they were destroying my stomach and I couldn’t hold down any food. My other injuries were a tear in my liver, a small tear in my left ACL which does not require surgery, some stitches in my face and head, and few hemotosis (blood clots between the skin and the muscle is how the doctor explained them to me.) very badly bruised ribs, and badly pulled right pec, lat and all muscles in the right arm. The broken hinge in my neck left bone splinters and spurs in a main nerve so I do not have feeling in my right hand, and I get bad pain between my shoulder blades if I stand too long. I cannot as much as flex any of the muscles that I had listed as pulled. Its not so much about pain, they just don’t really respond. It seems as if the make no attempt to flex.(One of the weirdest feelings in the world.)
Anyway, I’m lucky to be alive and no one can believe how fast I am recovering. I was out of shock trauma for two days and was going stir crazy, (go from working three jobs and going to school to sitting in a bed 24 hours a day.) so I had a friend take me to the harbor where I walked around for 5 hours before I even felt fatigue. My surgeon told me when the brace comes off in twelve weeks I can go to life as normal including driving and weight lifting with no real limitations. He assured me I’d be 100% in 6months. After my last evaluation (tues. april 30th, 3 weeks post op.) he told me I was recovering so fast I could go back to working out in three more weeks, which would only be 6weeks after breaking my neck. That is what I want more than anything in this world. I feel like complete shit. The day I was admitted to the the hospital, I weighed 227 lbs. (at 6% bf), and I currently weigh 194lbs (at 7 or 8% bf). I’m 22, and I have not been below 200lbs since I was 17 or 18. I have atrophied so much. I lost nearly 20 lbs during my stay in shock trauma, being fed via I.V. And the when I returned home the pain meds wouldn’t allow me to keep food down. So I continued to shrink. I have my appetite back now and I am dying to hit the gym, but everybody besides my surgeon is telling me not to. Especially people who have had the same injury, they are telling me to do no nothing for at LEAST 6 months, then take it easy for the next YEAR. There’s no fucking way. I have also been told by many people that I’ll never be 100% again, and that I’d never be able to squat over 300lbs again, if I could EVER do that much again. I’m glad to be alive and all, but bodybuilding is such a big part of my life, that if I could not continue, and not continue at my previous intensity, that part of me might as well be dead.
So I guess that the point of this HUGE post, (my apologies but I had a story to share,) has anyone had this injury, or do you know anyone with this injury? How long before they were whole again? Any serious advice or words of wisdom? Any expert advice from anyone familiar with the injury of sports medicine? Bill please chime in here. Or even just some encouraging words. This is the most difficult time I’ve ever faced in my life, and I could use all the help I can get. I am back to work at SSA, (returned after two and a half weeks.) I am also back in school attempting to save my classes, but I cannot work any part time jobs and I am with out the income of my ex-girlfriend so I can barely pay my mortgage. My hospital bills are in excess of $140,000 and climbing, and I have no health insurace. (I know, what a fucking idiot…I am young and dumb, and thought I was indestructable.) My personal injury protection on my car insurance covered $2,500. And that’s it. Social Services, Medicare, and medicaid won’t help me unless I am out of work for 12 months. So if anyone has a ny serious advice on that matter as well I am all ears. I know some people are gonna rip on my post anyway, but any serious advice is greatly appreciated.