Thanks to all the dedicated and kind members for helping me while I found an understanding endocrinologist. Last year I finally found one who gave me a clomid restart ( 25 mg mon/wed/fri x3months).
Unfortunately during this time my endocrinologist forgot to get blood taken so we have no solid proof it worked but as I can describe it "basically within 6 weeks at some point I was sitting at the bus stop looking around and boom suddenly the world was better and more accessible it was like someone turned on the tv switch to colour after I had been watching it in black and white for so long --- and up until that point you didnt realize it was in black and white - and I suddenly realize "fuck, this is what life is supposed to feel like", my sleeps got better, I started having morning wood, I was happy and had a positive outlook on life and I was horny 24/ ---- the downside was that I had realllly bad pain in my knees someday I wouldnt be able to stand for more that 15 minutes at a time from aches.
At christmas I also had a MRI of my brain which came back positive for a microandema (3mm mass) in my pituitary gland, their just planning on watching it at the moment.
Unfortunately around may/june all the original problems started coming back but more mildly then they were before
in May my total testosterone came back as
19.8 nmol/L (range 8.4-28.8) --- awesome so we started looking at other things that could be the culprit
In august I hit rock bottom and had my levels checked for my next checkup and he says their alright still but I'm basically where I was at before - I can do 2 hours of lifting with sweat pouring off and I have no need to use deodorant, I legitimately don't smell any more.
my levels came back as
Total T 14.0nmol/L orrr 400ng/dl (8.4 - 28.8)
FSH 3 IU/L (range 2-8)
LH 2 IU/L (range 2-6)