I won’t go into the gory details, but I’ve recently (within the last two weeks) had to face up to being bipolar.
Not a cute little mild case, but a nice, full on delusional case. I’ve self-medicated with bourbon and ephedrine/caffeine for years, but that has to end. Things are getting worse and I’ve got to make changes.
I know there are people on here that have said they are also bipolar, and I’m hoping for some feedback on medications.
I’m have episodes where my blood pressure gets very high (up to 160/110) for a few months and then will go down for at least 6 months to a year. Also, my mother is a type 2 diabetic and I consistently test borderline.
I’ve seen two different docs–one my closest friend, the other a shrink. My friend suggests Seroquel and Effexor. The shrink Adderall and Depakote.
I’m salivating at the thought of the adderall. I’m a better person when the ephedrine stack is working it’s magic, and I imagine adderall to be along those same lines. However, my blood pressure is already running around 150/100.
The problem with dealing with my friend is that I lie. Not a little, but constantly. So far I probably discussed about 30% of the stuff I should have, but it is hard to admit a lot of this stuff to him, and I’m pretty sure that I would continue to lie to him once on the meds.
I’m generally freaked out about numerous things:
–not being me anymore
–not having the up times/being trapped in a down place
–sexual side effects
–blood pressure issues
–liver issues (had bloodwork done on friday)
I would really appreciate feedback from anyone with any experience with any of the listed meds. or any others for bipolar. I’m starting to back out of doing anything, but I’m pretty sure that will kill me sooner than later.
PMs or emails are fine of course, and I thank everyone in advance.