I’ve been pretty dumb when it comes to supplementation and failed to do research or follow any proper protocols and now I’m facing the consequences of those stupid actions (or inaction). Essentially what’s happening is this: I started dating a girl about 9 months ago and during foreplay one day she asked my why my balls were so small. I was shocked as I didn’t think I had small balls.
She then clarified that she meant that they were small in proportion to my penis. I didn’t really have an answer but later on I started looking at my balls and the realization set in that my balls were in fact small. Smaller, actually, than I remember them being. I’ve never had big balls but I now recall that they were probably maybe 20-30% larger in the past from what I can recall anyway. I also noticed that my sack was tighter and didn’t have as much “hang” or the looseness that I remember them having.
I’ve taken a myriad of over the counter test boosters since I was about 20 (I’m 29 now). When I was 20 I also took what a guy at the gym said was a test booster that later on figured was probably d-bol tabs-I think i was taking 30mg a day for about 25-30 days. A year or two later I took clen tabs for a while thinking they were just a fat burner. No idea how much i took.
So about 6 months ago I started a prep for what was going to be my first bodybuilding contest. I dieted and worked out like a mad man and saw great results. I was taking hmb, tribulus, and another over the counter test booster called testostrogrow. I stopped taking all these supps cold turkey with no pct or anything. I immediately noticed negative side effects.
All I wanted to do was eat junk food (and I did. A lot.), sleep 12 hours a day, and had no urge to go to the gym whatsoever. I also couldn’t get an erection for about a week to 10 days. Then I noticed that my balls seemed to be shrinking again. They got tighter and when I laid down on my back they would suck up inside me. I still experience this today, especially during sex.
I typically don’t have any issues with getting an erection but the ball situation is very noticeable to me. I know my girlfriend notices too because she will push my balls down when she’s going down on me so they don’t get sucked up inside me. Bless her heart she doesn’t ever bring it up and quite honestly I’m sure it doesn’t even bother her but god dammit it bothers me. It’s very depressing and it’s on my mind all the time during sex and even just going to the bathroom.
So I’m thinking that this use and abuse of test boosters and orals has led to me this point. I want to know if it’s too late to ever get back some of what I lost in testicle and scrotum shrinkage. Literally as I typing this my balls are tightly sucked up against me. Is there anything PCT or supps that can get me back to normal even though it’s been so long?
I haven’t gotten bloodwork done so don’t know my T levels. My doc (normal family doc) looked at my balls and said they weren’t small and basically don’t worry about it. But I do worry about it. I’m sorry this post is so long but any help would be greatly appreciated. Thanks guys.