This is my first post here, and I apologize for being so negative. I need some space to rant and hope someone can help me out here.
I’m 31 yrs old living in Toronto,Canada where health insurance is covered by the Govt. This means that one cannot go and do his own blood work(even paid) as he wishes. This has turned out to be a major issue for me.
I’ve had symptoms of low T for a long time now. No energy, lack of concentration, no interest in sex and a mind that is always indecisive. I suffer from anxiety and have been in a major depressive episode for months now. Went to a doc who did regular labwork(CBC, Lipid, Liver fn, Thyroid,Anemia,Blood sugar,ECG, EEG …nothing Testosterone related though) and found nothing wrong.He diagnosed me with anxiety disorder and put me on anti-depressant and anti-anxiety medicines. None of that helped and my personal and professional life has been in a freefall since then. I’ve met psychologists and mental health counsellors but all that cognitive therapy isnt really helping me out.
After a lot of research, I asked for my testosterone levels to be tested and my doc flat out refused. He said that I’m 31 and have a beard so there’s no way my T levels will be low. Went to a couple of walk-in clinics where the doctors dismissed my request for blood work saying that its just my depression. A few of them gave me higher dose SSRIs for my anxiety.
With no other option, I searched hard and found a place where I could pay for blood tests. Paid almost 120$ for a Total Testosterone test only. Results came back at 10.9nmol/L which is like 314ng/L
Went back to my doc with this, and argued with him. He asked me to do it again (only total T… he would hear nothing of free T or LSH or FH).
Did it again and got a result of 11.2 nmol/L= 322 ng/L. The doc simply told me that these are in range and there is nothing to worry about. I tried my best to talk sense with him but he simply wouldn’t listen.
I tried going back to walk-ins again, but the doctors are least concerned about my T levels. Contacted Specialist TRTs - they have more than 6 months of wait time. There are some anti-aging places whom I tried to contact and frankly cannot afford their costs.
I am at my wit’s end now. My personal life has taken a serious toll and my marriage is on verge of breaking down. I quit 3 jobs in the last year and don’t know how much more I can take.
Since all my other bloodwork is normal, I’m certain that the low test could be the thing affecting me. I work out 4 times a week, and am fairly in decent shape. Am tired of taking SSRIs and want to quit them if I could.
The only way out I see now is to buy underground test and self medicate to see if it helps. I would gladly pay for pharma grade only if a doctor would assess and treat me. Sadly none of the docs I met would do so. I’m at a point where its either try out UG test or lose all control of my life.
What are my options here? Any help would be appreciated.