I have a pretty serious problem with computer rage. In the last two years, I've destroyed two laptops and a monitor, totalling thousands of dollars in damage. What always happens is, the computer malfunctions somehow, and suddenly this deamon in me comes out and I physically attack the computer in a fit of rage. After the last time, when I kicked the LCD monitor off the desk, I swore up and down that I would never do anything like that again.
Then, this morning, in my single worst episode yet, I grabbed my laptop by the screen and slammed it against the desk repeatedly because a webpage failed to load. I was stressed out and pissed off trying to retrieve this information off the web page, and the fucking thing just woulnd't come up. There was nothing wrong with the computer; it was all the website's fault.
Anyway I'm totally disgusted with myself and don't know why I do this. I've never been violent toward anything other than computers, never punched a hole through the drywall or anything like that. For some reason, a malfunctioning computer makes me angrier than anything in the world. I don't know what to do but I consider the problem very serious. I never want to break another computer again (for financial reasons mainly). How do I address this terrible flaw in my personality?