Hey guys. I havnt really been on here in like 6 months. Long story short, I tried to "hurt myself" and ended up getting locked in the looney bin for a week, my girlfriend left me, and I almost dropped out of school during finals week. Im getting counseling 3x a week and Im making a lot of progress. I was told I have panic disorder and depression and a minor anger problem. I am trying to get everything in my life back together so I can move on with my life and get to where I want to be. Lifting is a great outlet for me, and I feel good when I make progress and have goals. I figured that because it was something Ive wanted to do for a long time because I missed it, I would try to get back to it. Kinda find myself in the weights haha.
Anyway, fucking pity party aside, I am on zoloft, and I am getting of resperidone. I noticed that my lifts were all messed up when I went back for my first lift. I was real weak compared to my last start. I think I am eating well and sleeping well. I thought my meds side effects were finally going away, but I feel like lifting is stressing my body and making the side effects show up more than usual. I have weakness in my hands and my limbs feel cold for extended periods of time. I have been getting the shakes real bad in class again when I try to write.
I know its a personal question to ask, but...Does anyone else have any experience with this type of stuff? How might this affect my training?
Will the SSRI affect my ability to recover at all due to its affects? (Ive only completed anatomy 1, phys 1, hist 1, and my biology minor minus cell molec up to this point).
Thanks for your time and patience. It feels good to wake up sore and have something to look forward to during my day.
Any general depression advice or ways that I can manage everything to make the best of this and start hitting my goals?