I need to know if I'm in a downward spiral and what to do about it.
Long story short;
Always been on the average thicker side but strong. Big shoulders type. Played Highschool football, was a linemen and started working out at 13 in school.
For some reason growing up I never really gave a shit or perhaps I didn't understand the importance of protein intake until later in life when I got serious about the gym.
During my time in the corps I got serious about the gym and Always did it naturally.
Still wasn't understanding protein and diet.
When I got out I became a contractor giving me a lot of time in the Gym's of Iraq & Afghanistan.
I usually stayed at 230lbs 5'10"
But still only decently strong
It wasn't until 2009 I really exploded.
I was hitting the gym for a full two hours a day because I had the time and on base there ain't shit else to do.
Worked out hard in 2009. Full year on a natural regament. Finally got knowledge about about 1.5 grams of protein per lb. lower carbs, higher fats and about 250 grams of protein a day.
My weakness has always been chest and my strength legs back bi's
After that good routine my numbers looked like this:
33" waist (I'm a big winde dude)
My PR's were
115lb Dumbells on bench (230lbs total)
Standing curl: 120 (45 plates)
It wasn't until 2012 that I was with some non American SF guys that I took my first cycle (200mg) a WEEK (low I know) of Test E.
It was a short 8 seeker and honestly I didn't feel different except maybe I recovered faster. But that's the whole point right?
While taking this first cycle I started Shortcut to Shred while ramping my protein through the roof, eating vegetables and watching my carbs and sugars with every Sunday being a cheat day and day of rest.
I finally had some PR's I was proud of but my bench is still weak.
Deadlift: 415 (that was enough)
Point is I had some size. Very broad chest etc.
Since then, I started a new business 3 years ago and have been consumed by the endeavor. Haven't really hit the gym since I left the sandbox.
I went up to 250lbs
Didn't really look bad just big. Got asked if I played rugby a lot.
Here's the whole reason I joined and made a profile.
I don't know shit about cycles. I've heard 100 people say 100 different things and everyone is a bloody expert but knows zip.
Over the past 24 month I took two half ass cycles that I'm ashamed to admit. I stoppped one half way through because I never made it to the gym because of the business.
Both cycles were Test E one for 10 weeks and one for 6 about 4 months apart and both low 200mg per week.
And yes, all cycles no PCT
Now The business is taking off, just got married and back in the gym for 5 weeks.
My bench is back up to 225 X 10 X 4 so strength is ok and I'm. Building it back up
My main issue is I'm huge now. Which is expected and weight is already starting to drop. I'm at my heaviest ever of 275. Shits crazy
My XL's are stupid tight but manageable.
Here are my questions;
Did I Fuck myself up with those idiot incorrect cycles?
Sex is fine, I can tell my test is a little low but need to check blood work.
I have Test P. Should I take it correctly with Apex to get my levels back and what my Estrogen?
I've never taken a PCT because I was never instructed on its value until I started reading your forums and now I'm feeling pretty stupid.
So how do I fix this problem the right way?
What should my next step be exactly?
My main goal is to drop 50lbs of fat. I haven't ran since the Corps but do enjoy the heavy lifting. I would like to lift heavy and get lean over time.
I just need your help or advice please.
Shoud I cycle up the right way or wait?
And what is the correct way during and post cycle for anti estrogens
Sorry this is long guys but I figured the back story might help.