It’s because the gear isn’t the problem. You have to realize that we actually do know what we are talking about, otherwise our advice is meaningless in the first place. You cannot isolate one element and put it on a pedestal.
You will probably continue to make gains using gear off the next cycle or two, but there are other elements that are MORE necessary than drugs, and you WILL eventually stall out for good. Food is WAY lower down on the pyramid, and you said yourself that you spend most of your time on cutting diets and eating “healthy” food. Well there’s your problem right there. It’s right in front of your face, people are telling you, you said it yourself, but because you are not hearing what you want to hear, you are going off in a huff. Well, you can get as angry at all us (who, not incidentally, all happen to be a lot bigger than you) as you want, but it is still not going to change actual reality. And actual reality is that big bodies require big calories. They require a lot more than tuna and chicken breasts. Save the cutting diet for a bodybuilding show three to five years from now. You need to be eating steaks and cheeseburgers.
For reference. I helped a guy, who was in a similar position as yourself, put on around 12lbs of almost completely fat free mass BEFORE starting his first cycle when he’d been determined to start a cycle right away. We did this just by conscientiously increasing his calories. He then went on to more than double that weight when he did start his cycle. I guarantee the weight he gained on cycle would have been the same, either way, but because he learned to eat FIRST, he both gained more mass first, and he will KEEP that mass afterward.
I hope I’m not wasting my words. If I hear any more suggestions about how the only way you are going to be able to gain weight is through gear I am going to stop offering any more advice, period. Calories have to go somewhere. They have to.