[quote]SmilingPolitely wrote:
I think the idea behind this is really good. There are a lot of guys out there who unintentionally push the boundaries, or worse, feel it is OK to escalate the sex without consent and feel that they are entitled to more because, “Hey she can always leave if she doesn’t want it”.
For the sake of expanding this conversation and, perhaps, illustrating what I believe this policy is trying to address, I am going to share a couple of stories. Please note, that I take responsibility for my actions in these situations. In some cases I was stupid, drunk and left myself vulnerable. In others I was too young to know what to do. In NO instance did I ever consider pressing charges, but that does NOT mean that I was fine with what happened. I don’t know if a guy can ever fully understand what something happening to your body against your will truly feels like at the moment. It is traumatic. It does mess with your head. Its not necessarily insurmountable, but it stays with you.
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I had just turned 21. None of my friends were old enough to drink so I had the brilliant idea to go to a bar by myself. I was talking to a couple of guys who continued to buy me drinks so I would “hang out”. Being inexperienced, I over did it and couldn’t drive. They offered to let me crash at their place.
While there, I had sex with one of the guys. It was consensual and we used a condom. In the morning, the guy tried to go for round two. I told him I didn’t want to and pointed out that there were no condoms. He said that since I liked it so much the night before, that I would enjoy it even more without a condom. I protested, he won and I found out 6 weeks later I had chlamydia.
I went home with a stranger while drunk. I agreed to sex already. Despite feeling violated, I was also ashamed of my actions and blamed myself. -
I was dating a guy for almost 3 years. We were starting to have some major problems and I knew I was in a situation I needed to get out of, but was not sure how to do it. After weeks of pushing off sex, I finally decided to concede so he would stop getting mad at me about it.
He started to get extremely rough. Not hitting me, but rougher than I wanted to go. I told him what he was doing hurt. His reply was, “This is unbridled passion and you need to suck it up”. At that moment it went from sex I was mildly OK with to something very dark and scary. In the moment, the life we shared together didn’t even register in my mind. All I felt was fear. -
One last drunken story (yes. You would have thought I had learned my lesson). I go home with a guy I had been flirting with for months. We’re messing around and I am having a good time. While he’s going down on me, he sticks a finger up my ass and I cum.
Fast forward a bit and he decides he wants anal. I say no. He insists that since I liked it so much when he was going down on me that I obviously like anal. After a few more protests he finally stops trying and things go back to fun. He then “accidentally” changes lanes. I scream. Try to back away but he holds my hips and tells me to relax so it doesn’t hurt as much. You want to talk about a feeling of utter powerlessness? In that situation, the damage is done. Aside from trying to claw his eyes out, I am left with few options except to wait for him to finish, get dressed and leave.
In none of these circumstances did I press charges. I understood my own culpability in what occurred. However, the way I viewed those examples and the way the guy did were vastly different. I wouldn’t label any of them a “rapist”. I honestly believe that none of them meant, or even realized, the damage they had done, but the memories stay with me.
This is where the concept of “affirmative consent” is a great idea. If nothing else, it serves as a reminder that you can’t always read signals and what a guy might find benign may be too far for the girl; particularly in a world where we are so inundated with porn, some guys’ expectations can be far from reality.
I do NOT, however, support the enforcement of this policy. It is too vague and makes it too easy for women to take advantage of it. And, FWIW, MOST women hate the ones who falsely accuse because it diminishes the severity of rape. Because so many women have cried “wolf” in the past, women who claim rape are now instantly scrutinized.
I have been extremely fortunate to have not been sexually attacked. My experiences were mild compared to what some women have gone through. But, you don’t have to be pulled into a dark alley to feel violated. These instances affected how I viewed my self-worth for quite a while, but they are nothing compared to the life shattering trauma that other women have gone through. I share them not to garner pity. They are not stories I regularly think about now. Hell, I don’t even discuss it with my bf.
I shared these examples so that maybe some of you can see why women want to have this conversation. I am sick of the phrase “Rape Culture”, but I do think we need to have open and frank discussions about sexual situations that are escalated by guys who may or may not know they have gone too far. Something that seems rather innocuous to a guy could have a lasting impact on the woman involved.
That’s all I went men to know. Women don’t all hate men. We are not all out to ruin your life. We are all also very different. So please do not assume that just because your previous 5 girlfriends loved something that we are onboard right from the start. Your intentions may be innocent and perhaps you are just trying to do your best to please the girl, but I beg you not to assume. Take the time to make sure everyone is having a good time every once in a while. This policy makes it seem like you should get a written affidavit before hand (and with the potential legal ramifications that could be a result, I understand why a lot of guys feel like that is the only way). A simple, “Does that feel good” or “Do you like that” every so often can make a world of difference in the way a woman views her time with you.[/quote]
Great post.