- No, i care about my sexual health of course, developmental concerns are just the cherry on top, you know?
- If we can call my bloodtests allright, then i will agree, but surfing through web about the median ranges of IGF-1, LH and Test. by AGE, for example prooves otherwise for me?
- I care of course.
No i developed my symptoms at 16, while on the third day of the drug, i experienced a retrogate ejaculation and freaked out, things never been the same way since.
However, i did not ‘‘crash’’ like the classic cases. My symptoms worsened dy bay day, i didn’t even notice that i was losing my penis size until the 3- 4 years in… That shit, happened slowly.
4 years ago when i opened this thread i could feel my orgasms, for example now i don’t. It is all numb down there now.
My hypothesis is that Accutane changed AR expression on my prostate and my poor organ got inflamed and over the years it just got worse and worse because i couldn’t treat it.
My Uro said that once you ejaculate with a damaged prostate, it causes more damage because the muscles which causes ejaculation won’t work properly, so your semen gets inside stuck (my first issue was lowered semen volume.) and this causes more damage and edema on prostate which in turn affects the whole nerve network, therefore muscles and blood vessels and sensations i should experience go offline…
Anxiety, OCD, stress, depression etc.
Now i experience these things much less, i am doing better mentally, i can now fight with it, forget it. But i still have unclosed pages about my concerns and wonders.
Oh no, wish it was true. It is not something like that. The symptoms really feel like that it is not in your head. I wake up morning with a dreamy mind and urinate for example, i feel nothing. I can’t even feel my own urination, it is like %25 of what it was used to be.
Even when i get an erection with a good desire and without performence anxiety, my Pelvic Floor muscles won’t contract and fill with blood at all. They are soft. I can’t feel that rockhard contractions on my perineum muscles, plus it is numb, no sensation. I remember a great sensation there which travelled through my penis that gave me the ‘‘urge’’ to masturbate\ have sex. That sweet warmness and good sensation on muscles and penis itself is gone totally.
Imagine you just entered a very cold sea and your genitals lost all the sensations due to cold, it is something like that, but plus, my prostate is also numb. So you would still feel good to urinate inside the cold sea even though the outer surface was numb! LOL! Or like you could feel the good sensation coming from prostate and travelling inside your penis… And on the perineum muscles…
But i can’t even experience that now due to my prostate issues. That little f*cker seems like the heart of sexuality. I sometimes keep notebooks about the sensations i used to experience before PAS, to not forget. Because if i ever FORGET how good things felt before and how hard i could get, then i am a dead man.
Sorry if i seemed to regress back there, i just sometimes wonder you know… And i would be really glad if you could take a look on those studies, the abstract sums it up well actually, so it is rather quick to read.
I just wonder if there is thing as a ‘‘threshold’’ of gene expression or hormone levels to accomplish genetic potential.
So for example, just because the protein synthesis lessened, would that necessarily mean the affected organs developed less than usual? Penis, prostate etc.
Or let’s say Accutane changed my IGF-1 gene expression or it somehow damaged my liver persistently that my liver couldn’t produce the desired IGF-1, would that cause less height or less bone development on face? Or it was just a ‘‘mild damage’’ and i was still healthy enough to grow fully in every aspect. Hmm…
Just throwing some ideas for future readers too, if you don’t know the answer or can’t speculate more on that, i would understand.
Really, i mean isn’t this a universal known thing? Everyone says that, like eat healthy, do sports to grow taller, to be healthier etc.
Things i experienced on TRT which were positive: More sweat, more sweat around my gluteus muscles and on my groin area which had this weird manly smell that i forgot? (wtf)
Deepened voice. But that’s all and those improvements seems like they disappeared… Did i just sabotaged myself to cut this protocol quick? I did Test for 7 weeks… I mean it should be enough to see a change i would say, and i am scared to go more now. Besides i feel worse than baseline now after quitting.