This is exactly why I told you to stay off the drugs. You are not using them. You are fucking dependant on them. How will you maintain 185lbs off cycle if you can't eat enough to get past 140lbs naturally? Are you going to stay on forever and carry around 25lbs of bloat?
Read? By the time you start a cycle, you should KNOW from experience.
If you have enough experience under the bar naturally, you would more or less KNOW how close to failure you can push yourself with heavy weights. But if you only learn this on cycle and you try pushing the same limits while not running deca, you will injure yourself.
There is nothing wrong with your workout. Your inexperience and over-reliance on drugs is the problem.