My whole life I was the fat kid, at my worst I was close to 300 pounds of pure fat. I got into lifting and started losing the weight, but I've never really gotten as lean as I would like.
After about a year of spinning my wheels and dealing with hormone issues from trying to lose weight and not getting anywhere (not eating enough while trying to lose weight), I started a bulk at 180lbs and gained 20 pounds in about 5-6 months. I added plenty of weight onto my lifts which had been stuck for awhile and it has been great.
I did my first powerlifting meet and didn't miss a single attempt, while setting some personal records. I plan on bulking for a little while longer before attempting to drop back down to the 181 pound weight class where I would fare a little better.
If I decide to bulk up to 220, then I may only cut back to the 198lb weight class. Either way I don't want to be over 198 for my competition this summer. I don't think I can justify letting myself compete in the 220's for awhile until I get my bodyfat down a bit more.
Bulking was really the right decision, because it has fixed problems I was having with sleep, testosterone, and just generally feeling like crap everyday.
At 200 pounds I feel I don't really look any fatter than I was at 180, so it has really helped to get me to realize that I need to focus on getting stronger more, and not fear putting back on some weight. I must admit that I am scared to try to cut weight again though haha.