I started out with daily subQ at 25mg/day. For about 10 days or so at the beginning I felt amazing. Clarity of mind for the first time in my life, super high energy, crazy libido. Hard to believe that placebo would have me going from zero libido to having aggressive sex 4 hours/day, but who knows…
After that initial short period it started going down quickly and I got to the point where I felt truly awful, depressed like never before in my life and borderline desperate. It has stabilized a bit now but I still feel worse than before starting TRT.
I assumed subQ wasn’t working, so I got tested a few days ago and my numbers came back very high:
TT (MS): 1700 ng/dL (range: 250-1100).
FT (Dialysis): 300 pg/mL (range: 35-155).
E2 (UltraSensitive): 42 (range: <29)
Is it possible I’m too high to feel good? I’m pretty sure I don’t want to stay this high long term for health reasons but shouldn’t I at least feel good this high?
I don’t have any apparent side effects. I sleep well, no acne, heart beat slow and steady. I just feel completely unmotivated and depressed all day long. No drive to do anything, I don’t even want to work out anymore for the first time in 5 years.