As an avid ‘off radar’ reader of the fascinating subjects and stories on this forum, i’ve finally plucked up the courage to join and share my story in a view to getting to advice.
Ill start with giving my vital stats:
Age 35, 36 in September.
6’2" in height
Naturally slim build, around 82 Kgs, with a very high metabolism.
32/33ins waist currently.
Fat starting to accumulate around my belly/lovehandles/back areas, probably due to lack of motivation or drive to train or, do anything in fact…
Body hair: Around chest area, around belly button, fine hair on forearms and legs (all over).
Facial hair: Full facial hair, have noticed it getting finer over the last 3/4 years… Eyebrows are full and reasonably thick.
So… Ive have had a fairly active lifestyle in terms of hobbies and jobs, played roller hockey 1-2 times per week religiously since i was 13, rock climbed 1-2 times per week for the last 8 or so years and lifted weights say 5 times a week for 10 years.
In early 2013, i did a small 12 week cycle of testosterone (enanthate 500mg/ml per week with a Dianabol kickstart). Followed correct protocols with PCT, which consisted of Clomid and Nolvadex, cannot for the life of me remember dosing for those, Im sure i have them written down somewhere and will have a look to see if i can locate the paperwork, but they were tapered out over the course of PCT as instructed. Suffered with fairly bad cystic acne mid-way through PCT, probably caused by the DHT from the Dianabol etc.
But… ever since then things most certainly haven’t been right!
Ive always been a fairly introvert, shy person. Would rather listen than talk etc, but my ability to engage in convo and even get sentences out that make sense(!) has worsened. I feel like a shell of my former self… low self confidence and self esteem. Also my cognitive function i feel has slowly got worse and worse, which has started to affect my career.
I met my (very understanding) girlfriend the end of the same year i did the cycle. At this point i was still feeling fairly confident (manly), probably from the exogenous test, but things went downhill around 6 months in, which has 100% affected our relationship. Poor erections and the ability to keep them, premature orgasm, ZERO sex drive and an ache in my testes/lower abdomen which is not there all the time… Always tired, no drive or motivation for anything, stoped training, climbing hockey… And started suffering from anxiety and symptoms of depression. All of which plague me to this day.
Unfortunately, i have no bloods as a baseline to gauge against, so i cant really say if my levels have always been the way they are or not.
In 2016, I decided to get some bloodwork done using a popular online clinic and check in with my GP when i got the results. As expected, everything was ‘within acceptable limits’ and was told to make some lifestyle changes. So i started to train again, but the motivation was non-existant and i saw all my gains dissapear. Great…
Here are the Test results (apologies if the upload doest work):
Several years passed, with symptoms not improving, i decide to get another set of bloods done, although not as comprehensive.
Another wasted trip to the GP later and I have had enough, I have decided to pay to see a private endo. Why I didn’t do this sooner I don’t know, he actually took me and my symptoms seriously, and was concerned. He suggested to have a few more blood tests done including prolactin to rule out the pituitary side of things.
Here are the results:
Plasma prolactin: 118 mu/L (55.4-276)
Plasma FSH: 5.6 iu/L (1.3-19.3)
Plasma LH: 2.5 iu/L (1.2-8.6)
Plasma Testosterone: 16.4 nmol/L (10.0-27.6)
Free Testosterone: 7.19 pg/ml (4.0-30.0)
I have had SHGB done also, but dont have the results of that to hand, (endo has it). Will post when i get the opportunity.
He agreed that for my age, free test is low and the LH and FSH axis should be mounting a better response to where it is at the moment. Looks like he will be willing to trial me on test to see what response i get from that.
I am currently waiting for an MRI scan to rule out pituitary tumours etc.
Like i said, i have other blood results, but not able to post at the moment.
I would love some feedback from you guys to gauge whether the endo is going down the right path and whether you can offer me any other advice! @KSman i have decided to try with IR, just waiting for it to turn up, in the meantime i will collate some body temp reading as per your instructions from the sticky.
Again, any info would be appreciated!