I'm new here and english isn't my native language so please forgive any typos.
For the last years i have been experiencing bouts of depression and huge anxiety amounts that wouldn't leave off.
I haven't had any morning woods in years and have very low level ejaculations. Lot of pain in muscles and difficulties to concentrate. Very low self confidence (like on the verge of crying after bad situations at work etc...) and lately i found myself crying over tv shows or movies and i also could not stand the sight of blood in movies, which is something that never disturbed me before (like suddenly being a 6 years old girl...).
I was fine a few years back with a lot of self confidence, no anxiety at all, no depression. I remember taking a lot of maca/tribulus/vitamins and was also doing a lot of cardio and weight lifting. Sometimes i woke up with a "weird" deep toned voice and my friends would joke about it ("why are you talking like a bear ?") now i wonder if that was just an effect of high/adequate level of testoterone.......
All doctors are saying i am fine but i know i am not.
Here are all the blood tests results i managed to gather :
Vitamin d3 : 29 ng/ml, 73 nmol/l
Testerone Total : 5.91 ng/ml (2.41 - 8.27) ; 20.5 nmol/l (8.4 - 28.7) ; 591 ng/dl
ACTH 50.7 pg/ml (10.3 - 48.3)
Vitamin D3 : 21 ng/mL
Oestradiol 38 pg/mL (8 - 50)
SDHA 12.3 umol/L (2.0 - 15.0)
SHBG 41.64 nmol/L (14.5 - 48.4)
Testerone Total : 5.38 ng/ml (2.42 - 8.65) ; 18.67 nmol/L (8.4 - 30) ; 538.5 ng/dl
Free Testerone : 12.5 pg/mL (8.9 - 42.5) ; 43.3 pmol/L (30.8 - 147.3)
Sodium 140 mmol/L
Potassium 4,8 mmol/L
TSH u.s 3.752 mUI/L
T3L : 5,4 pmol/L
T4L : 15,9 pmol/L
HDL 0,70 g/L, 1,81 mmol/L
LDL 0,95 g/L, 2,45 mmol/L
ASAT 21 U/L
ALAT 25 U/L
Gamma GT 22 U/L
PSA Total 1,36 ng/mL
PSA Free 0,23 ng/mL
B12 : 1 052 ng/l
Vitamin d3 : 40 ng/mL (30 - 60)
ACTH 9AM : 5,2 pmol/L
Cortisol 9AM : 746 nmol/L
Free Testosterone RIA (9AM) : 8, 9 pg/mL - 30, 9 pmol/L
Thank you very much for your help