Hi, I am 26 years old guy from Europe.
I failed to regain my true self after Anitdepressants therapy - both emotional and sexual side.
I am now 3 years without taking any AD or psych drug.
Missing my old self desperately. Below are my lab results, more detailed story below them. PLEASE HELP
ESTRADIOL 36,64 pg/ml (n:7,63 – 42,6)
FSH 2,5 mIU/ml (n:1,5 – 12,4)
PROGESTERONE 0,3 ng/ml (n:0,2 – 1,4)
PROLACTIN 9,4 ng/ml (n: 4,0 – 15,2)
TESTOSTERONE 3,21 ng/ml (n: 2,490 – 8,360)
SHBG 17,5 nmol/l (n: 17,3 – 65,8)
I am still waiting for lab results of Free Testosterone and DHEA
I was always super horny since childhood. Anxiety symptoms started since 13 Y/O, never had depression till changing environment to college life (19 Y/O) - doctor prescribed Prozac when I was 21 Y/O - he didn’t mentioned about Sexual Side effects and possible remaining PSSD.
Prozac helped with benzo use ocasionally in stressful situations (once per 1-2 month). I also tried some psychodelics in the meantime with SSRIs (not wise).
After 2 years I felt completely dead dick so I tapered off for 2 weeks and quit. Then tried to battle depression from diferrent angles – here is my drug history.
Prozac (09.2011-12.2013) - almost 2.5 years
Wellbutrin (01.2014-07.2014)- 6 months
Moclobemid (07.2014) - completely healed PSSD for 2 days, give me terrible nausea, had to quit
Nothing - 2 months/ Depression relapse
Brintellix/Wellbutrin (09.2014 - 04.2015) - almost 1 year of this combo to battle depression without sexual sides with no success
Brintellix (10.2015 – 01.2016) – Last contact with AD
FREE (01.2016 – TODAY)
My sexual dysfunction is not as awful as can be in some people after AD – I am still consider myself a sexual person. However it is like 30% of what it use to be. Main symptoms – premature ejaculation, super weak erections, weak orgasms, weak sensitivity (i can’t feel the tip of my penis). Also almost no sense of connection with other people especially females (no lust/spark). No Chance for long term relationship or normal sex life. My intimate relationships are no longer than one night stands. Of course problems with motivation and focus/memory. Something like other person living in my body. Problem get better with time for maybe like 5-10% (super super slow),I got one good window of symptoms free (60%) for one day, by that was all.
I am desperate to find a relief. My Tesotosterone is super low, so maybe that is a reason? Any feedback, advices, what I can do to help myself? I am tired of waiting, I want to love, have kids, be normal.