First time poster here. I’m 24 , going on 25 this August. Succinctness isn’t my biggest strength, so forgive me if this post gets a little meandering.
Physique wise, I’m about 5’6 157-160 lbs and I guess you could say a bit on the “skinny-fat” side. Round face, skinnyish neck, skinny arms and wrists, but I carry a lot of fat in the midsection, thighs, hips, and I have sort of a manboob thing going on. I’ve always been pretty active (although definitely not as much now) and have done plenty of weightlifting in the past, but for as long as I remember, I’ve always had this type of physique.
When I was younger, I had it, just with less midsection fat, but despite dieting, cardio, the usual, I never seemed to be able to get to the point where I could see any cuts on my body. Because I couldn’t seem to cut the fat out, I turned to bulking and lifting weights (regularly) to try to put on some muscle and see if that’d help. I gained a few pounds here and there, but I never seemed to gain any weight on my arms, lower or upper.
Back then, both losing and gaining weight were difficult endeavors. But now, it’s almost impossible for me to lose weight, but gaining weight is almost effortless (fat, not muscle I mean). Even worse than the lack of aesthetic progress are my lack of strength gains.
When I first started weight training when I was around, I don’t know, 15-16 I could probably bench 95 lbs max. I got that up to 125ish in a couple years, but mind you I was probably hitting the gym 3-5 days a week and eating a ton. Then I just plateaued. Haven’t been able to break it since. And it’s a pretty similar situation for all my other lifts, not just bench.
Anyway, as frustrating as the above sounds, I sort of accepted it as me not being as athletically gifted as other people. But then, maybe a year ago or so I started having problems maintaining erections. Back in the day, I was a bit of a horndog not unlike your average high school/college kid, wanting to bang every remotely attractive girl I saw. And when I could, used to be able to go all day and all night.
Now, somedays it seems that I can barely get it up, even after abstaining for a couple days in advance. And when I do get it up, it only gets about 50-75% as hard as it used to. I’ve gone soft mid-penetration, maybe the last 6 times I’ve been with a girl. I can’t stay erect for blowjobs anymore. And I also started having problems with premature ejaculation.
Sometimes I’d get soft and try to jerk it back to life for her and I’d end up cumming while not even fully hard. I haven’t had any traumatic sexual experiences or anything that might have caused it, so I’mnot sure it’s psychological. Also, my semen looks pretty watery. God, it hurts to type this out.
I’m not sure how to describe my sex drive. I don’t feel like my libido is low. Sometimes I’ll be browsing reddit and come across a nude woman and I’d get caught in a porn rabit hole for a couple hours. But if I’m out at parties or bar hopping or something, I never get that urge to pursue an attractive girl like I used to. I don’t have the energy or the will to compete with other dudes for a girl’s attention like I used to.
I don’t know, maybe I could chalk that up to anxiety. I mean, I masturbate at least once a day, sometimes twice but it seems to be more out of habit if anything. I need to do it before bed or else I wont be able to sleep, speaking of which…
Sleep has always been my biggest enemy. It seems like I’ve always had some form of insomnia. Just can’t make the “circus” in my brain shut the fuck up. If by some miracle I happen to be able to fall asleep, I’ll either wake up earlier than I’m supposed to be, or I’d still feel groggy and tired throughout the day and have to take a couple power naps.
Lately, I’m also starting to feel unmotivated, like my ambitiousness has totally disappeared. I don’t feel depressed, as in sad, but depressed as in the world seems sort of grey and tasteless unless I’m high or wasted. If I’m faced with a difficult decision, “fuck it” seems to be my go-to expression. I try to avoid challenging situations at all costs.
Then there’s the ADHD thing. I was diagnosed with a few years back and got prescribed Adderall IR at 10 mg twice a day. Not too high a dose. Other than taking an extra pill for help getting through some paperwork, I never abuse it. Anyway, I heard that ADHD can sometimes be confused with symptoms of low-T. Whichever it is, I definitely have the mental fogginess, inattention, inability to focus/concentrate, forgetfullness, etc. that is associated with both of them.
Lack of organization too as you can tell by this post. The physical stuff only really started becoming a problem a couple years back, but the mental issues (aside from the lack of motivation and depression) have sort of always been there, since high school anyway. I don’t know if my T levels have always been low, or if they were normal and just plummeted recently for some reason.
Anyway TL;DR here’s some symptoms I experience that I think might indicate low T:
skinny-fat physique (thin limbs, fat on midsection and chest)
-difficulty gaining muscle
-difficulty losing weight/fat
-striae/stretch marks everywhere, particularly on
-difficulty gaining strength
-excessive sweating (didn’t mention it above, but it’s really bad)
-lack of energy throughout the day (unless on adderall)
-lack of motivation
-ADHD like symptoms
-mental fogginess (crappy memory)
-erectile dysfunction (unable to maintain an erection, sometimes unable to achieve)
-thin, watery semen
So fast-forward a few GP visits, my GP makes me get some bloodwork done and my results was 418 ng/dl. She makes me go see an endo to get a second opinion and, well, and here are the results of my blood work:
The free testosterone results didn’t go through for some reason, but doc made me retake it for just the and it came in the second time at 13.30 pg/ml but my Total Test came in at 480 ng/dl
The endo says I’m low-normal, but there’s “nothing wrong” with any of the numbers, which I kind of expected after all the stories I’ve read about low T. But my total test numbers on the pics I posted above are kind of concerning, no? The LH, FSH, TSH numbers are somewhat on the low range too. What do you guys think? Your help would be greatly appreciated.