Glad you could get something out of this conversation. I think you’re moving in the right direction. If you stick with this for a long time, have some patience, and really push yourself as hard as you can, eventually you’ll get to where you want to be. You’ll figure out the things that need to be figured out, you’ll find the right advice, etc. I firmly believe in that process. You don’t have to have everything figured out at this point, your workouts don’t have to be perfect, nor does your diet. If you stick with it long enough, all this will come into place.